It's been centuries since I have updated this book!
Today I will be ranting about how I feel like I am forced to lose weight.
Ok, this all happened ever since I have been staying up late. I don't know if it's because of the light on my tablet or it's normal for me to do that. I really don't know so I think its both. But lately, I noticed that my anxiety is acting up. It's hard for me to breathe, I get negative thoughts, feel dizzy, and that's it. It is all because of my sleep schedule. I use to go to sleep early but that has changed since I lived back with my sister.
Other than the anxiety, I also eat late. I don't do this all the time because I know how to control myself and wait till its the right time to eat. You know like in the morning? It's not good to eat late especially if you got to go sleep. Idk if I am saying this correctly. Please don't be afraid to do that.
But I haven't eaten anything while I was still up. Earlier yesterday, my mom bought me arbys and then went to the store to get other foods. She bought toaster strudels which are my favorite, I had two for dessert and wanted another one for breakfast.
I sound like a fat ass but my mom wouldn't let me get one. I chose a breakfast sandwich (to be real, I didn't want that.) I wanted the toaster strudel. Sorry if I am sounding like a fat ass, cause I actually am behind this screen. 😭 ugh! Like I was saying, I know she is just looking out for me and my health but it feels like I am being forced to be healthy like I am trying my best to drink a lot of water so I wouldn't have to binge eat.
It is so freaking hard to control. I feel bad for myself cause I'm big as hell and shouldn't be eating a lot. I sometimes wish I was skinny so I wouldn't have to go through this.
