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Coming Out

I just had the most stressful experience today.

Around an hour ago, and its lasted this long, I came out to my father. I'm pansexual. I told my youth pastors and they told my dad. Then I was brought into the room to explain things further.

I have been crying for the past 6 hours straight and have had one massive anxiety attack because of this.

I thought he was gonna kick me out for his thoughts about homosexuality. My entire family is very Christian and I'm a Christian but I also dont care about anything besides the fact that jesus died in the cross more me and whatever.

So i thought I was gonna get yelled at and stuff. But he knows now and he wasn't very accepting if it, but he also didn't yell, hit, scream, or do anything like that at me which I was happy about.

I'm not going to marry a woman because of my religion. There are some girls I would want to date but I wouldn't because I'm not gonna marry one so I would just be wasting her time. But I still like some girls.

This coming out thing has lasted 5 days. And I'm tired, emotionally drained, and I want it to be over. But I'm pretty sure I'm not done talking about it. I really just want it to be over and I'm still nervous about it even though I'm done pretty much.

But if you're scared to come out to your parents you should be. But you should still do it, whether they're excepting or not just let them know.

My dad is an older father so he's a little more "grumpy and cold." And he's very intimidating. I told him that and I dont feel much better yet but im glad he knows now instead of me having to hide it cause I've been hiding it for 2 years.

So just saying this from experience.