I can't choose {Tom Parker/Nathan Sykes Fanfiction}

Chapter 5: Bye bye virginity

"Are you staying the night Mads?" Tracy asked as she came into the kitchen to grab some wine, she was slightly tipsy but she had every right to be, Tom was going to be huge!

"Yeah she is Mum" Tom answered for me.

"Am I?" I said, raising my eyebrows at him, it wasn't a big deal we were always stopping round at each others houses, but after the conversation we'd had earlier, I didn't really want to share a bed with him.

"Yeah, we need to spend as much time with eachother as possible, before I leave for London" Tom smiled, filling two glasses with water, a sign he wanted to go to bed.

"I'm moving to London too remember?" I laughed, surely we could still see each other quite alot?

"Theres nothing wrong with me wanting my bestfriend to sleepover is there?" Tom said tutting at my unusual unwillingness to stop over. I was being awkward around him, he was my bestfriend for gods sake, he'd seen me without any makeup on, he'd seen me at my darkest moments, but since that kiss I just felt weird.

"See you tomorrow Mum" I said as made our way past the living room, ready to head upstairs.

"See you babe, night Tom" My Mum winked, she really knew how to make things uncomfortable. We eventually escaped the parents and both began to get ready for bed. I went to the bottom of Toms wardrobe to search for my usual pyjamas that I kept at his house, but I couldn't find them anywhere.

"Erm I have a confession to make" Tom said guiltily as he realised what I'd been looking for.

"Well the last time I got lucky, she kind of just put your pyjamas on afterwards, their here" Tom said sheepishly, unravelling my pjyamas from a pile of clothes on his floor.

"I'm not wearing them now" I laughed, god knows how long they'd been in his room for, plus the fact, another girl had slept in them.

"They're clean and everything, I think" Tom laughed, suddenly holding the pyjamas away from him.

"I'm not wearing them Tom, they'll probably have...sex germs on them!" I blurted out, I didn't even know what I'd meant by that, but it freaked me out knowing that she'd worn them after having sex with him.

"SEX GERMS!?" Tom laughed, falling back onto his bed, clutching his sides as he chuckeled at my stupidity.

"You know what I mean" I said laughing along, I could be so geeky at times.

"Oh god Maddy you're the funniest person I know, here wear this it should be longer on you" Tom said throwing me one of his t-shirts, still laughing to himself.

"Dont look then" I said akwardly as I began to get changed.

"What? I've seen you in your underwear before, infact most of the time I'm having to undress you when you're drunk, I know you hate waking up in the same clothes" Tom said, he seemed shocked at my request, it was true he was always walking around in his boxers, he'd seen me before with nothing but my bra and pants on. It was that kiss, why did he have to do that, if he hadn't of kissed me things would be normal right now.

"Just, divert your eyes" I said ushering him to turn around with my hand.

"Fine" Tom sighed, turning to face his wall as I placed his t-shirt over my body, it reached down to my mid thigh and was incredibly comfy.

"You dont have anything to be conscious about anyway Mads" he added as he looked over his shoulder to see if I'd done, luckily I had.

"I have plenty to be conscious about Tom, come on lets just sleep" I said as I climbed into bed.

"Suprised you're not telling me to sleep on the floor or something, now that you're all weird around me" Tom teased me, obviously picking up on the fact that I was acting differently around him.

When I said sleep I meant lets talk for hours. It's always the same at sleepovers, once everyones attempting to go to sleep you end up having your funniest and emotional chats. The music was still blasting out from downstairs but I'd gathered it was only close family and friends who had stopped until this early hour of the morning. Me and Tom had been talking for hours about his new band, silly childhood memories, and how things were going to change. The last subject I didn't particulary like, I wish time would stop still and it could be forever me and Tom in his little single bed, just being us.

"Have you thought any more about my offer?" Tom suddenly said, turning on his side to face me.

"Offer?" I asked him, forgetting all about our earlier conversation, I was too busy laughing about the time when me and Tom had first got drunk, on practically two sips of beer.

"Sex" Tom said bluntly, smirking at the fact that even the mention of the word made me go quiet.

"You're my best friend Tom, it'd feel weird..." I trailed off, the awkwardness sorrounding me again.

"I know Maddie, but thats why I want to do it, show you what it's like, you have to put your faith in me, I wont hurt you" Tom said.

"I'm not forcing you, I know you only loose the big V once, but if you want someone you can trust, someone who wont laugh or make comments them I'm here, just say the word" Tom finished, lying back down onto his back. I didn't know how long I'd been lay there contemplating what to say, but it felt like hours. He was right, the boys at university wouldn't want to know a virgin, and they'd probably use it against me if they ever found out. Tom was my best friend which made it...wrong. Having said that after the initial shock of the kiss, it had felt nice. I trusted him with my life and I knew he wasn't just doing this for his own needs.

"Okay" I eventually whispered. The butterflies flew around in my stoumach as I awaited his reply, or action. I could hear my own breath as it trembled with nerves.

"Are you sure?" Tom said, leaning his body onto his elbow so he was looking down on me.

"Yeah" I nodded, even managing a smile.