I can't choose {Tom Parker/Nathan Sykes Fanfiction}

Chapter 19: I'll shove yer abs up yer arse

A/N: OKAY ALL YOU NADDIE SHIPPERS WILL LOVE THIS CHAPTER LIKE LITERALLY LOOOOOVE OK SO IM SO SORRY I DIDN'T UPDATE YESTERDAY WHEN I SAID I WOULD, I'm a dick ano, BUT SRSLY I HAD SHITTY WRITERS BLOCK AND I MEAN IT WAS VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY BAD. I wasn't even going to do this bit until like chapter 30 odd or summert but yano I did so the whole story's been turned around :D (not the plot or anything just where I put the chapters and when) ok so I hope you enjoy and taddie shippers I'm terribly sorry but SHIT HAPPENS ok lol bye x

"Just hurry up okay, Tom will be fuming with me" Nathan pushes us both up the stairs as we go and pack. I begin shoving random things into my suitcase before I realise that most of my clothes are in Tom's room anyway. I suddenly feel like I'm invading his privacy, so I grab what I can find, trying to ignore the various photos on his wall, mainly because they include pictures of us two, when things were not completley messed up.

"Maddie, I'm sorry, I just thought you should know" Kaya pleads with me to try and stop packing, but once she sees the determination in my eyes she helps me gather my belongings.

"I'm coming back, I'll only be gone for a week, by the time I come back I want you and Jay to be official, okay?" I smile trying my best to hide my mixed emotions at everything that was happen.

"Okay, try and forget about Tom, I'll be your eyes and ears" she says pulling me into a hug.

"Thankyou, and thanks for telling me, I needed to know" I say truthfully before walking out of the room, wiping away a single tear.

"You ready?" Nathan says, flicking his fringe from his eyes as he looks up at me, he's sat on the stairs, trying to listen for Tom coming back. I hadn't gave Nathan a choice, I'd told him to drive, but Tom had rang Nathan telling him to turn the car around to pick him up, Nathan ignored him. I still didn't know whether he did it for me, or if because he was genuinley scared of Tom's mood. Either way, we wanted to be gone by the time Tom got home.

"Ready as I'll ever be for a week in Farmland" I almost smile as I grab a cardigan to keep me warm for the nights journey. Suddenly we hear the front door click shut and we both look at each other in panic. I dont blame Nathan for being scared, he wouldn't stand a chance if Tom got violent. We had just left him to find his own way home, it's probably taken him over an hour to walk back, plus it's raining, I dread to see what state he's in.

"Just let me have a minute with him, can you go and tell the others where were going please?" I say calmy, I try and distract Nathan with a job so he doesn't come downstairs, I need to assess Tom's mood.

"I'll be down in one minute" Nathan says sternly, not impressed with the idea of letting me face Tom alone. I dont know what I was expecting but it definitley wasn't this. Tom's just sat watching tv, like nothing has happened.

"I'm just letting you know I'm going to Nathans for a week" I say calmly, I dont know why I felt the need to tell him, the other boys would have filled him in.

"Have fun shagging sheep and shit then" Tom laughs, removing his wet top from his body.

"Will do" I smile sarcastically, I realise my mobile is on the table infront of Tom, I cant go a week without my mobile, besides I need to keep in touch with Kaya, see what Tom's getting up too. Not that I should care.

"Tell me you're not going to miss this?" Tom smirks grabbing my arm, forcing me to look at his topless body.

"I'm not going to miss that" I say looking at him in the eyes so he knows I'm telling the truth. I'll miss my bestfriend, the Tom I used to know, but not this sex crazed, big headed, typical boyband member.

"Yeah well, Nathan doesn't have a body like this" Tom laughs rubbing his hands over his six pack lightly.

"Yeah well, Nathans probably not ridden with std's from skanky women" I laugh harshly, proud at my insult.

"Just piss off out my sight okay" Tom snaps, finally he's beginning to get angry, I know I shouldn't wind him up, but after the way he's treated me I want him to feel like crap, to feel what I feel.

"Happily" I say sweetly "who knows what Nathans got planned" I whisper in his ear before I walk out of the door. That should do the trick.

"Nath, have you ever drove to Farmland before?" I laugh as we go round the same rounadbout for the third time.

"Everything just looks so fucking different in the dark" Nathan tuts as he geusses at which lane to take.

"Alright calm down" I laugh at his sudden change in mood. Suddenly Climax by Usher comes on the radio and I cant help but feel awkward at a sexual song.

"I'm just going to have a break and look on the map" Nathan groans as he pulls into a deserted bit of land, hidden by trees.

"You look so cute when you're angry" I remark as he rummages for the map. What I really mean is that he looks sexy when he's angry but I dont have the confidence to tell him that.

"Most guys look sexy when they're angry" Nathan tuts at my attempt to compliment him.

"Bit gay" I laugh, I know he didn't mean it to sound like that but I cant miss an opportunity to tease him.

"Piss off" Nathan laughs giving up all hope of trying to read the map.

"Oooh baby Nath's having a tantum" I laugh at his face which is a mixture of annoyance and laughter.

"I'm not a baby" Nathan says gripping my leg which makes me squirm and laugh under his touch.

"Well, not in the bedroom department anyway" Nathan winks, were so close his long eyelashes are almost touching mine.

"Really?" I grin, biting my bottom lip.

"And I love doing it in weird places, never done it in a car before though, and this song is really, really turning me on right now" Nathan whispers in my ear, leaving a trail of goosebumps.

"The song is very relevant" I reply before I can even think. Nathan lets out a small groan before his lips are on mine.

I lean my head on his chest and smile to myself as I hear his heartbeat working to calm him down. As cheesy as it sounds I never understood the term "making love" until now. Tom was good but there were no feelings involved apart from lust. Nathan was the complete opposite, he put everything into it, he was caring and giving but at the same time forceful and strong. I knew I only had Tom to compare him with, but I was pretty sure this is what it should feel like.

Nathans p.o.v

"Seriously Maddie, just go to sleep, I'll wake you when we finally get there" I laugh as I take one hand of the steering wheel and recline the passenger seat for her. She wraps her cardigan around her little body and I can see she doesn't have the strength to argue.

"Didn't mean to make you tired" I say smugly, knowing that she wont have the energy to comment back. I keep my eyes on the road but I cant stop them from being distracted by her. She looks so innocent when she sleeps, innocent is the wrong word to use after what had just happened between the two of us, but it was cute to see it none the less. I didn't care about Tom, they weren't a couple, none of us had done anything wrong, and the little deal they had got had clearly been broken earlier on in the day. I don't know what he'd said to her but I had noticed the tears she was trying to hide when she had climbed back into my car. He didn't know what a good thing he'd got. They say you dont know what you've got until you've lost it and I geuss he was going to realise that now. There was no way I could let her go back to him, that had been one of the best moments of my life and I wasn't going to let that go. When I had got a grip on my sorroundings it hadn't took me long to find the way back home. Lucky for us we had the house to ourselves, my mum and Jess were on holiday.

"Maddie" I whispered shaking her gently to wake her up. Then I decided against it, she looked too peaceful.

"You weigh heavier then what you look" I spoke to myself as I lifted her body from the car. I swiped my boxers that had landed next to her seat and laughed at how rushed we were to get each others clothes off. I unlocked the door and smelt my house that I hadn't visited in so long. I didn't know where to place Maddie so I tucked her into my bed, I'm sure she wasn't going to complain after our little activity earlier.

"Tom Parker doesn't know what an idiot he's been" I whispered as I climbed in after her. Her body heat next to mine, the scent of her hair that I couldn't help but inhale, her little breaths that cooled my skin, it's safe to say I went to sleep a very happy boy.