I can't choose {Tom Parker/Nathan Sykes Fanfiction}

Chapter 32: Nathan?!?!

A/N: guyssssssss I am so sorry about the wait, basically I told you all Monday and I usually update on my iPad but i dropped it and my screen cracked, my computer was broken too bc it needs a new battery and I don't have wattpad on my phone so...oopsies. Then I told you all tomorrow which was I think Wednesday do I should've update yesterday but my fucking inteRNET went off for no effing reason.......I was angry.......... Now I guess that leaves us to here. I worked rlly hard on this chapter bc I had no Internet so I thought well I may as well just write it and make it better so,,,,,,, E N J O Y : D but I thought meh its ok so basically here it is.

Maddie's POV

"Merry Christmas babe" Tom's morning voice breaks the silence. It takes me a few seconds to remember what happened, and when I do remember, I feel dead inside. I scramble out of bed so quickly, determined to find some clothes to put on, that I fall out of bed with a thump. The pain from falling doesn't even compare to the pain in my heart and I lie on the floor wishing to never get up again. As soon as I get up, I have to face what happened. Tom's grin soon faces me as he peers over his bed to see what happened and I drag the duvet off of him to cover myself up. Plus the fact the bright white coming through the window is suggesting heavy snow, another reason why it's so cold, literally as well as metaphorically. I blink at Tom absently as Nathan swarms my thoughts.

"I can't believe what I've done" I suddenly break down into uncontrollable sobs, I have nobody to blame but myself, and if I could turn back time then I would, without a doubt.

"I'm sorry, it was my fault" Tom says sheepishly, shivering from the sudden coldness as he sits on the bed to keep his distance from me. Part of me wants to believe him, but I knew what I was doing, I wasn't completely drunk and I did nothing to stop it, I wanted it too happen.

"No it wasn't, I wanted it just as much as you did" I cry, struggling to breathe.

"Maddie be quiet" Tom shushes me, moving so he lies on top of me, the duvet providing a safe barrier from his nakedness.

"I love him though Tom, and I've messed everything up" I can literally feel my heart breaking as Tom misinterprets what I just said.

"I do have feelings you know" Tom mutters, not looking me in the eye, hurt at the fact that I regret last night so much.

"You don't get it do you?" I sigh, I tell my brain to stop, tell my lips to close but it's too late "I love -"

"Come on sleepyheads and open your presents" My mum and Tom's mum burst into Tom's bedroom.

"Get the fuck out" Tom shouts, scrambling to get under the duvet with me so nobody sees him naked.

"Oh sweet mother of jesus" Tom's mum steadies herself against her door, no doubt seeing your own son completely naked is a mums worst nightmare.

"Maddie what on earth are you doing?" My mum asks me, trying not to look in Tom's direction.

"Erm, Tom wanted me to look at something..." I trail off, I know whatever lie I create it won't be good enough explanation, how can we possibly get out of this one?

"Yes I know what he was wanting you to look at all right!" My mum says in disbelief, Tom has the confidence to laugh at my mums face and I kick him to tell him to stop.

"Come on Tracy, lets leave them to it" My mum adds, throwing me a look of disgust and disapproval. Tom's mum shakes her head trying to delete the image and the bedroom door finally closes.

"Merry Christmas one and all" Tom stands up and shakes his bum in the direction of the door.

"Tom this isn't funny, what if my mum tells Nathan?" I suddenly panic, she knew what had been going off between us.