oh, darling of mine | michaeng

VI

February 21, 1990

Callidora's POV

3, 2, 1...

Baaam!

"WHAT THE ACTUAL FU-" Ambriosa screamed her lungs out.

"Sorry, there was a mosquito and it was bothering me." I tried to contain my laughter. 

"Stupid ass" Ambriosa said with an annoyed tone and went back to sleep. As if she knew how to sleep. I then for real laughed and went out to get some air.

Lately, I've been feeling so suffocated. Anywhere I go there's something in my chest that doesn't let me breathe properly. It always happens when I'm next to Ambriosa. This girl seriously is so unaware of me. I know she cares for me, but she'll never see me as her true love. I know I can love her, truly, sincerely, deeply, forever. She's my princess, my lady, my everything. Romeo and Juliet 's love for each other is far from where I stand. Only if she knew that I believe in love because of her. 

But I'm being too delusional, there is never going to be a "her and I." We can't. She's been trying to convince herself that she doesn't want the cure anymore, but I know that deep inside she is in deep pain because she can't die. Not yet. Not until she meets 'her.' The one that will save her from her eternal inferno. Where are you girl? Why are you making her feel this much pain? Can't you just appear?

Her pain is my pain. That's something I'll never tell her. I love you Ambriosa. That as well will never come out of my mouth.

A week later...

Her special day will be in a couple of days, I should buy something for her. Hmm, she doesn't need anything, what could I buy for her?

Her ring is getting old. I can probably give her a better one.

"Ya, I'll be going to Rome for the weekend, want something from there?" I know she is going to say no.

"Whatever you want" I knew i- what? did she jus-

"Stop daydreaming, just bring me my favorite candy. I haven't been there in a long time." Ambriosa said with a smirk on her face. Oh no. Oh no. Oh no.

"Since you actually asked for something this time I won't bring you anything." I playfully answered.

"As if" why is she following my game?

"Are you sick my lady?" I was actually getting worried. What if she had been replaced by someone else and I didn't realize it. Why is she being nice? What if sh-

"Ridicule" Never mind. Whenever she speaks French I know she's not joking anymore.

"No need to get mad. I'll get going then." I think something is bothering her. "What's wrong?" I stopped and sat next to her.

"Nada" Why is she switching languages like that. We've been around Latin America for too long, I still can't speak Spanish. Lame, I know. 

"Stop changing languages and tell me what's invading your thoughts." I said with a firm tone and a poker face. She was surprised for my sudden change of mood.

"The other day I was walking by La Patagonia and I saw a familiar figure. I couldn't clearly see her. But her scent penetrated my nostrils. It was her. It was Selene." It's been so long since I heard that name. Ambriosa told me to never say that name in front of her and if possible to never mention her at all. But now she is the one who said it. This is serious.

"Maybe you miss her." I mumbled hoping she wouldn't hear me. Who am I kidding, she hears everything.

"I do." I couldn't read her face. Ambriosa are you, you?

"Me too." It's not a lie. But somehow I was always annoyed because Ambriosa's treatment towards Selene was extremely different from mine. She was so protective and caring for Selene, she's never been like that with me. I don't hate Selene. I liked her. She was the sweetest and dumbest person I've ever met. I lowkey want her to be with us. The unstoppable trio. 

If she's alive, after all these years, I swear I'll find her. 

I'll find you, Selene. And once I do, please forgive me.