Never Sent (Completed)

Here we go again

A year has gone and the storm has passed,
Leaving me okay and never harassed.
I was doing fine until I knew,
That a year has gone and she was still loved by you.

It's quite amazing to feel again the pain,
For all I know that's all I can ever gain.
Welcome suicidal thoughts it's been a while,
Since you last visited me when I still held a smile.

You realized that she was still your everything,
And I remained always happy yet sadly bearing nothing.
I know how your heart works,
You see beauty and flair,
Never the melancholic, assuming dorks.

She's pretty, a sight so soft, so perfect,
I still held not a glint of beauty,
I never even was your prospect.
Love is sweeter the second time around,
Feel free to hug her, cuddle her all year round.

I'll do fine,
This is nothing.
I'm used to death, by heart and everything.
Here we go again,
My beautiful hopeless love,
I happily offer to bargain.

As for her, you're the luckiest,
Me? Never the smiling one, I was always the saddest.
I'll again look at you together as you'll promise,
As my heart digs, screams wild,
My thoughts I couldn't harness.

Here we go again,
My drama all over the place,
As Your beautiful soul I silently chase.
But never will I have you,
I never did. Never will. Never in a million years.

Here we go again with the tears and the cuts,
Count the hopes in and all the buts.
I thought everything was fine and I'll pull through,
But it never was, I was always troubled by you.

Could I just disappear and leave everything behind?
For I want a happy life too where I'm loved and whenever I'll seek, I'll always find.

Here we go again,
The pain,
The tears,
Hopes,
Dreams,
Broken.

You just love her too much and you can't just leave,
So I'll sit here and count as I grieve.

She's just to great and she deserves everything,
I'm just a girl who spent all her life hoping yet I never had a thing.

I can never be half as great as her,
So I'll just stick with this life and I'll forever suffer.

10/10/14 (9:28 pm)