Game of Love -- Damien Haas X Reader

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Wednesday, July 3, 2019

8:47 pm

It had been over a week since I stopped that moment with Damien. It had been a week of dodging him and sneaking around work trying to stay out of his way and trying to avoid any questions from anyone else. 

I was sat in my bed, my laptop resting on my lap. The room was dark and there was an empty tub of Ben and Jerry's on my nightstand, the top resting beside it. Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince playing, my eyes glued to the screen. I have this habit of watching Harry Potter movies when I am sad or upset. Half-Blood Prince just happens to be my favourite out of the series and is my go-to. 

Throughout the movie, I followed Ron and Hermione's relationship closer than I had in the past. The struggles that they went through to get to each other. In the end, being brought together through a coma-induced dream. Maybe I need Damien to be in a coma and for him to pick me. 

Well, he already picked me... so maybe I need to go into a coma to figure out my feelings. 

Maybe I just need to be poisoned by professor Slughorn and put out of my misery.  

Right now, I feel like the one and only Draco Malfoy, and may I say that he looks FINE in this movie. Anyway, back to my point, Draco is a confused little boy who doesn't know what side to choose. The good side and risk his and his family's death by the Dark Lord or choose to be a Death Eater and have a horrible life going on but save himself and kill his family. We all know what side he chose but the main point being I am confused. Do I give into my feelings for Damien and hopefully be happy, with the risk of being uncomfortable in who I am in a relationship, or do I push away from him and stay comfortable but continue to be down in the dumps? 

I just need someone to Avada Kedavra me off of an astronomy tower. 

Too soon? 

Too soon. 

I miss Damien, I really do. He makes me feel happy and good about myself. He makes me feel... makes me feel...loved. He brings so much light to my life. When I am with him I feel the most like myself, I can be who I am and say what I want to say without the fear of judgment. Damien makes me feel like I belong in this world, and that is something that I have never felt with anyone. 

When we were kissing, there was a rush like no other I've had before. There were sparks and my mind went blank, and, my mind never goes blank. The way that he wrapped his arms around my body to pull me as close as possible is something that I usually hate but, with him, I enjoyed it. 

Holy crap.

No one has made me that way before. Damien has unlocked a part of me that no one has before. He makes me feel like me. Does Damien hold the key to my full potential? That sounds weird and no guy should ever hold any part of a woman or make them feel like only that guy should be able to unlock who they are, but that is the best way to express it. 

At this point, I stopped paying attention to the movie as I fell into a spiral of thoughts. 

Damien is the other key player in my game of love. He is the player that saves me from the torture and despair that I am about to endure. 

That's it. He is the one. 

I need to keep him in my life and I need to give him a bigger role in my life. 

Next Level in this crazy game: Get Damien Haas to be my boyfriend. 

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NEW UPDATE YAY!!!!! 

Also.......HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY!!! 

As a United States Inhabitant, this is a big day for my the place I have always called my home.

YAY!

This chapter is quite short and Potterhead filled. 

I was watching the SYFY Harry Potter marathon and Half-Blood Prince came on. 

Since HBP is my favourite book and movie (as mentioned in the chapter), I paid more attention to it and the parallels between the characters and this book stood out. So as a normal human would, I ran to get my laptop during the commercial break and started writing as I watched. 

So sorry that this is nerdier and kinda boring compared to the chapters beforehand. 

Anywho...

QUeStiOn oF thE dAy:

What is your HP house (if you have one and/or care enough to have one)?

Personally, I am a Slytherin and I absolutely love it. Throughout reading the books and watching the movies, I was drawn to the Slytherin traits and lifestyles and I found that I was more closely related to them compared to those of the other houses. So I was v happy to be sorted into the house when I took the Pottermore test. 

Anyway, I hope that you enjoyed this chapter and, let me know your answer to the questions above! 

See y'all later!

xoxo, 

emily :)