Sonder- Sequel To Ashes A Peter Parker Fanfiction

Mission

Kelsey's POV

Our first night after the battle was spent in the hospital mainly for everyone that came in contact with the stones, but I needed some medical attention as well and that lead to everyone fretting over me.

"So can we talk?" I ask coming out of my last appointment to see Peter is sitting in the waiting room already bandaged up. He looks up looking kind of nervous, but he nods and we walk outside the rest of the team watching us as we go.

"So..." He starts and I start to fiddle with the ace bandage wrapped around my arms. "You're not wearing the ring." He points out and he doesn't seem upset or thankful he's simply just pointing something out. "Wearing it was to painful, everytime I looked at it I burst into tears."

He nods sitting down on the sidewalk and I join him observing the star speckled sky. "Are you, you know... Seeing anyone?" He asks his voice shaking as he curls more into himself and all I want to do is wrap my arms around him and hold him.

But I can't yet...

"No, dating anyone other than you never crossed my mind. I knew I would always compare them to you, loving anyone other than you seemed impossible, so I've focused on myself." I explain truthfully because he deserves to hear it.

Even if he wants nothing to do with me now, now that I'm five years older and so very different he deserves to hear the truth. "I'm sorry." He whispers faintly and I can feel his eyes staring through me.

"Don't be."

Silence surrounds us again as I try to build up the courage to talk to him, I used to be able to share anything with him. Nothing's changed...

"I love you still, never really stopped, and I'm sorry if that weirds you out because I feel like I'm this entirely new person and I'm old..."

"Kels you're not old, you still look eighteen. And I know you're different, but so far I just see a stronger woman." He whispers looking down at his hands before he forces his head to snap up and look at me, and I force myself to stay still looking for any lying but I can't find any.

And then the tears I've been holding in because I'm so stressed out spill, and I drop my head in my hands. "You have no idea how hard life was, after awhile I just accepted it and continued with my life for everyone else but I knew I'd never be as happy as I was with you." I feel him scoot closer, and then I feel his arms wrap around me pulling me against him.

"I don't know what anyone's told you..."

"No one's told me anything other than my dad telling me have a sister." He whispers against my head and I can hear the faint smile in his voice as he says that. "Well after you guys... Died I guess, I was in a really dark place. I... I wanted to die, so I jumped off that cliff in Wakanda." His grip on me tightens and I hold onto his arm keeping my head down.

"But the thing is as soon as I did I regretted it, and I was terrified. Luckily Rhodey caught me, but I still have nightmares about that day, about you disappearing, and just about everything else. But I swore that I was going to get better for you, so I started this foundation called Avenge Us. It helped it really did I stopped focusing on my problems and started listening to everyone else's."

"Kels I'm sorry, I can't imagine how overwhelming this must be." He sighs and I calm down more as he runs a hand gently through my hair. "Yeah, I was just starting to get used to my new normal when Scott showed up, and honestly how could I not say no. I wanted all of you back so desperately, but I didn't think about what would happen after."

"You've always been a planner." He chuckles my heart swelling slightly and honestly I've missed this. All of the uncertainty is worth it even if I only get this time with him now.