I didn’t want to accept what I'm seeing because as soon as i accept it, it becomes real. And once it becomes real, so does the pain.
Asphyxiation and nausea buried me alive in this room. I opened my mouth to scream and shout at him, but I break down and cried.
"Tay?"Javier rubbed his eyes and flint his eyes for a clearer vision of what's happening. "Tay." He sigh as he noticed I'm on the floor.
Javier looked at Naomi then to me. And realized what he have done. "Tayla" he shakes his head, deepening the anger in me. "Wh-what" I choked. "What....is this?" I waved my hand gesturing to both of them on the bed fucking naked.
"Baby" he climbed up revealing only wearing his pants on, tripping over the blanket to run to me.
"Dont come fucking near me!" I pointed at him.
"Tay." He raised his hands as if he's being pointed by a gun. Hope it's a gun. I would love to kill him right now. "How could you? How could you do this to me?" I trembled.
"Baby...fuck" he rubbed his face harder and brushed his hair through his fingers.
"I chose you over my damn family! Yet you have the urge to fuck around with that whore!" I pointed at Naomi who have smug on her face while covering herself with the blanket.
"Tay....I didnt... I didnt know...."
"You didnt know? Were you lost to put your dick inside her? You. Fucking. Piece. Of. Shit!" I hit him. For the first time in my life. I'm hitting someone. And this someone deserves it. I should pound him with a wrecking ball because those heavy weight is all the pain build up in me and he should be crushed by it.
"Baby listen to me" he captured my wrist.
"What else you could say that will change my mind?" I asked. He didnt answer. He looks soooooooo confused or lost. Such. A. Stupid. Face. "Huh? Nothing!" I pulled away from his grip. "We're done! I dont want to see you again!" I walked away from the suffocation held up inside his trap.
"Tayla please dont say that. I'm begging you please dont leave me"
"Do you love her?" I stop on my tracks and slowly facing him.
"No I love you!" He toke a step forward.
"Yet here you are jeopardizing our relationship!" I threw a glass at him but he docked. Few pieces ricochet on his arm leaving some cuts.
Opening the door is like the end of the road for me love again. After I leave this place, I wouldn't be the same.
Javier pulled my arm but I backed away. "Dont. Dont." My voice has dissapeared. My tears have minimized its sorrow.
"Baby I dont know....fuck! I dont know! I dont know how she got in here, I dont know how we..........shit! Baby I never intend to do this. Just please listen to me." He paced back and forth.
"My mom was right." I choked.
"No...." he stopped his pace.
"You dont love me." I said looking through his eyes.
"No! That's not true!"
"I-I dont w-want to be with you anymore"
"Tayla please. I dont know how I slept with her. Fuck! I didnt even sleep with her Tay. I wasnt drunk. I didnt drink. I was waiting for you to come home. To come home to me" he cupped my cheeck and bring his forehead to mine.
"I think...we are just delusional. That we thought we love eachother but the reality....were just using one another."
"Tayla. I love you. Damn it! I fucking love you. I'm in love with only you. I dont want her." He whispered.
