My Art Boiiiii

saying this here because apparently i have to

to clear some things up, in case any of you were curious about the decline in quality in my art lately:

*i am lazy as hell and rarely finish drawings anymore

*i am comfortable sharing "bad" art on here since i know i won't be ridiculed or something like that

*i have never traced art and claimed it as my own (unless you count when i was 12 and would print out pictures of hetalia chibis and trace them in my spiral notebook i used for school hsjfhshdkd). none of the art i have posted here, old or current, is traced. heavily (perhaps too heavily) referenced? yes, a lot of my older stuff is, especially stuff i did in middle school. stolen/traced? absolutely not.

i'm about to be a fucking junior in high school. i am applying for jobs and studying for so much shit rn, like the psat and the sat, along with dealing with a ton of summer homework because i'm taking three ap classes next year. i don't have time to finish many art pieces because i'm fucking busy. it may seem like the work i've been posting recently isn't as good as work i've posted in the past and that's because it fucking isn't because i don't have the time to draw anymore. i draw in the little spare time i have, and most of the time that's on long car rides, at restaurants, while i eat meals. sometimes i draw instead of sleeping.

i am sorry i don't post good art anymore, but frankly, i haven't produced good art lately. i'm sorry. but please understand that i'm just a person, i'm not an art machine who always makes perfect drawings.

i've finally developed a style i'm happy with and for me that's a big step up from not having a consistent style for years, and honestly i'm just trying to work on improving myself more. i'm trying to stop using references, and trying to draw in pen more, and become less reliant on having to erase mistakes. so, yes, while i'm trying new things and continuing to learn, not everything i post will be good.

i'm sorry if you guys don't want stuff like that from me. i'm perfectly okay only posting finished pieces from now on, it's not a big deal, really. i'm sorry if i assumed you guys enjoyed seeing some of the less great stuff i've done, like all the crappy pen doodles and stuff i sketch when i have five minutes of spare time.

i'm sorry for being a bit upset right now, but honestly i feel i have every right to be. i've been dissatisfied with everything i've produced in the last few months, and honestly a few times i've considered just quitting art altogether. i'm trying to ease myself out of the mindset that i need to create art other people will enjoy, and instead create art i enjoy. i'm sorry if the stuff i'm proud of isn't "good enough" anymore.

i'm sorry i need to use references. i'm sorry i'm not perfect. but i don't need anyone to point that out to me, so please don't message me asking why my art is bad when it "used to be really good" and please don't leave comments asking if my old stuff even belongs to me. ever since i've started posting less-than-perfect artwork i've received a lot more messages like this and i'm fucking tired of it.

i know my art isn't very good anymore, and it's really difficult for me to deal with. and i hate that i'm asking this, but please don't leave comments/send me messages regarding my art unless you have nice or genuinely helpful to say.

i'm so fucking tired of having people put me down, and i think i've finally just reached my breaking point. i'm not blaming one particular person here, honestly, most of you are fine. but this has been on my mind for a few weeks now and i just feel like i need to address this situation to give myself some peace of mind.

i might delete this chapter in the morning, who knows, but i'm not tolerating anyone's bullshit anymore. any negative comments will be deleted, and i'm not going to waste my time defending myself if you send me a hurtful message. anyone trying to hit me with some bullshit will be ignored.

thank you for taking time to listen to me, and i'm sorry if i'm overreacting, but i've just needed to get this off my chest.

have a good night/day/whatever.

(there's a good chance i've posted this meme before but i'm too lazy to check oof)