To Get Her

Promise

Jiyong's POV

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The Morning before the surprised encounter

I woke up with a start, my breathing considerably heavy and my head throbbing in pain. Had I drank myself to sleep again? Apparently, I had. These past few days, I tried to sleep less and less because the lesser sleep I get ...  the fewer dreams I will have of her. My dream will always be the same, Dara smiling at me...Ani! It's Dara smiling to someone else. I tried to break them apart, pulling her away from his grasp but every time I try,  I always run out of time and I would wake up calling out her name.

Shivering, I pulled on the robe around myself and walked up to the balcony attached to my room to take in the fresh morning air. I looked at the snow drowning everything around me, making the trees and the ground look so cold and dreary, almost lifeless this early morning...just like me.

Every day I wake up like this, then I would put the news on hoping to hear something miraculous about her. I still can't accept nor will I accept that she's dating someone else now. How I wish that was me but the news is loyal to its owner after all. It never changed.

Two hours later as I was randomly changing the tv channels, I saw Dara's new variety show playing on TV. God, she look beautiful...and happy. I look myself up in the mirror and curse. I fucking deserve this, don't I? She's fragile and I can't even protect her. I don't deserve to hold on to her. I'm now beginning to think that it was better if she treated me like I don't exist.

After watching her show, I put the TV off and decided to pull myself together. I can't be a coward and hide in my Penthouse forever. I might not be her man right now but I am still a part of her life. I will do everything to make things right again.

No matter what it takes!

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I put down my pen and re-read all the words written again. After my epiphany  moment this morning, I suddenly felt the urge to writing something and my hands can't stop until I completed the whole song. I can't believe I have written a full song today and I was so excited to have the boys hear the melody.

On my way to YG office, I received a message from Daesung asking me if I'll be joining them this time for the meeting, which I have totally forgotten. These past few days, they have sent me all type of threats just to get me out of the unit. I can't believe how silly those threats were and I laughed it all off.

I sent him a message that I'm on my way when suddenly a call came through from Youngbae.

"Bro, are you really coming?! Where are you?" he asked frantically

"I'll be in YG in few. Waeyo?" I asked wondering why he sounded like he wished I am not coming.

"Can you buy some food on your way first? We're starving" I heard my best friend said on the other end. Something is off...Youngbae knew how I hate waiting in line buying food that's why it's always Sungri or Daesung who take turns in buying and some more, its too early for dinner!

"What's up? Tell me..pali" I told him

"Ani..just really starving right now Bro. " he said again. I can hear desperation in his tone.

"Is there something that I should not see in the office right now? " I asked him truthfully. My ears are peaked suddenly...

"Ani ...just... ahhh" he stammered.

"Stop with the bullshit and tell me what's going on Bae" I told my best friend. Youngbae is not really good in lying.

I heard him sigh and said " Jaejoong is here in YG right now...visiting Dara "

I dropped his call and stepped on my accelerator and raced up to the office. Damn it! I knew something was wrong when I left the unit earlier.

The sound of my tyres screeching in front of YG made the people outside the office jumped and curious. I jumped out of my vehicle and threw the keys to my manager who was waiting right in front of YG, possibly trying to delay my entry.

As soon as I stepped inside the lobby, I saw him. He might have felt my presence too because he suddenly turned as soon as I entered. Before anyone of us can speak, I heard someone calling Dara's name. Looking up, I saw her came rushing out from the elevator, out of breath. WTh?!

I was rooted in my place, mindless of the staff lingering around the lobby. I watched as Jaejoong went over to Dara and whispered something in her ear, making her blush right here where everybody can see them.

Gritting my teeth, I suddenly found Daesung pulling me towards the elevator. Probably trying to stop me before I wreak havoc inside YG. My entire body was trembling and I knew I was close to smashing Jaejoong's face as soon as I saw him approaching Dara.

"Bro, take a deep breath... you can't cause any trouble here. There's too many eyes watching" I looked up gratefully at Dae as we go up to the top floor.

I slightly nodded my head and gulped, trying to get rid of the choking feeling in my throat. I suddenly realized here is the best time to show Dara that I trust her. I wonder if I change my attitude, will it also change her behavior towards me. If she found out that I am not bothered with her dating scandal, maybe she would make an attempt to make things better between us.

"Did she know that you...?" Bae tried asking.

I shook my head. "I haven't talked to her ...I couldn't bring myself to ask her" I said in a small voice, hating how painful it make me feel to talk about it.

"Is that why you've been hiding all these time in your penthouse? You weren't planning on ever telling her of your plan did you?" He asked, understanding dawned upon him and I groaned.

"Bro, " Dae groaned, gripping his forehead. "You can't do that to Dara Noona. You can't leave her in the dark" he said. I knew what he meant. By not telling Dara, I act like a huge coward but it was better than to hurt the woman who I love the most.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know that there is a proper way of letting the woman you love know that it's okay for her to date someone else" I said with my tone full of sarcasm.

"Will you let her go...?" he asked me after a while and I decided it was no use pretending.

"I tried but I can't make myself do it Dae...I love her more than you can imagine" I let out a bitter laugh.

Next to me, Dae sighed and at the same time the elevator door opened, letting us know that we have reached the Board room. I suddenly made up my mind and pressed the button down to the Lobby area, leaving Dae's looking surprised as the elevator closed in his face.

I might not be the man beside Dara now but it's still my job to protect her whether she like it or not.. and that's a promise I'll keep no matter what.