Chapter 4:Downhill from here on out

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by EilishmeSeven

by EilishmeSeven

*TIME SKIP LIKE THREE WEEKS AND ITS A WEEK AFTER BILLIE'S 17th BIRTHDAY AND SHE'S BACK ON TOUR* *AND REMINDER THAT MOST THINGS ARE GONNA BE ACCURATE TO BILLIES REAL LIFE BUT IM GONNA KINDA TWIST SOME THINGS SK THE STORY WILL COME ALONG BETTER*
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Q'S POV
*Calling Mamas☺️*
"Mm. Hello?" I heard Billie say with a raspy voice as if she had just woken up.
"Oh I'm sorry baby. I didn't know you were sleeping sorry. I'm still not good with the different time zones." Saying not knowing that she had been sleeping. Fuck. She's probably tired. She needs to get rest, I should hang up.
"I'm sorry mamas. Go back to sleep, I'll call you la-."
"No, no baby. I wanna talk. I miss you so fucking much." She said sounding as if she was gonna cry.
Billie then sat up and turned on a lamp right next to her. I could now see her face. She looked tired and drained yet so beautiful at the same time. It made me sad to see her so tired. She gets worked to hard.
"How you feeling today, baby?" I ask her.
"Mm"
I know what that means. And I know she's not doing well with her shin splints and injuries. She still jumps on stage and goes crazy for her fans while hurting. My baby's so strong.
"I hate to see you so sad, Billie. I'm sorry mamas."
"What? I'm not sad."
"Billie i know you. And I know that your not okay."
"Well if I'm not with you I'm already not okay so I guess your right."
She made me blush. I love that I make her okay. I cant wait to have her in my arms again. It's so hard not being with her for so long at a time. I'm not able to make sure she's safe and okay. I worry about her. It's crazy out there. People might want to hurt her. Sometimes- most times, it's hard for me to fall asleep. Usually, we try to go to sleep with each other on face time. That way we feel as if we're in each other's presence. But lately, she's been in London and time difference is just too big and it's hard to stay in contact.
"I'm sorry I can't be there."
"It's okay. It's not your fault."
And i know that it's not my fault but I can't help but feel guilty. I should be there with her at all times. To protect her.
"But it's my job to protect you and I can't from over here. I feel like I'm letting you down."
"Baby no. Your not letting me down. Don't beat yourself up over things you can't control."
BILLIE'S POV
I could tell that he wasn't taking this long distance relationship very well. We both weren't. All we did was miss each other. All I do is think about what he's doing and how I'm not there to do it with him.
Most times he tries to hide his feelings and tries to hide that he misses me and how he too is struggling with the long distance relationship. But today- I can tell that today was a harder day for him and he needed me. Just like I needed him. Every time we face time he can tell how miserable I am on tour and I know he hates to see me that way so he starts to feel responsible for it when it's not his fault at all.
"Brandon, your the only reason I'm getting through this tour. Your my only source of motivation." I tell him. "Knowing that i have you at home waiting for me makes me push through this tour."
Seven then moves the phone to where I can't see his face anymore.
I heard him take a deep breath and then look back into the camera.
"Billie. I love you.."
"I love you too, Seven"
"So I think it's best if we break up- just for now. Just until you come back. Being away from each other has taken a toll on us both and it's not healthy. Baby your traveling the world and doing shows which you love but can't enjoy it because your thinking about me. I can't distract you from your job. I think this is the best way to do things. To better ourselves- for the both of us."
His words pierce my ears.
I can't believe what I was hearing.
I basically poured my heart out to him. How the fuck could he break up with me if he just said he loved me.
I didn't have anything to say to him. I wasn't gonna sit there and cry in front of him if he obviously didnt love me and I didn't wanna sit there and scream at him either. I couldn't.
I just hung up.
SEVEN'S POV
????????
Why would she hang up on me?? I only told her what was best for the both of us. And it wasn't a complete break up. It was just for a couple of weeks until we got back so it wouldn't be so hard on us and she wouldn't get distracted from doing what she had to do. I was just looking out for her.
As confused as I was about the whole situation I still had to at least try to call her back.
I called and called and called. And she declined each and every one of them. I even tried texting her multiple times.
BILLIE'S POV
He kept calling me and texting me but I didn't want to talk to him. If he loved me, he wouldn't have broken up with me. I want nothing to do with him.
Monday, 4:30 am
Q baby☺️: Billie please talk to me.
Monday, 4:56 am
Missed call from Q baby☺️
Monday, 5:30 am
3Missed FaceTime call from Q baby☺️
Monday, 6:26 am
5 missed calls from Q baby☺️
Monday, 7:04 am
Q baby☺️: Billie answer my calls. We need to talk. This is not how we're supposed to do this. We're not breaking up. It's just a little break- for two weeks until you get off of tour so I don't distract you and so that we're both not sad all the time and don't have to worry about each other all the time. Please, at least call me. "

Did he really think that if we broke up I'd stop worrying about him? That if we took a break, I would stop missing him? I know he's not that stupid. I'm so fucking mad I can't even go back to sleep.

I didn't even want to think about At this point, thinking about him just made me sad and mad. And I can't even get all my anger out because of course out of all days, today, I don't have any any shows. I could've stayed on the phone with seven all day but no- he had to break up with me.
Thinking those thoughts in my head really killed me. I to started to cry. Soon that crying turned into sobbing. I couldn't stop.
So there I was, crying in my lonely hotel room over a guy who didn't even love me.