A santos angel/O.Diaz

37.

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After school
4:31 pm

Cameron

I was sitting on the bleachers, watching the lacrosse team practice. Saiyr And i's conservation still lingered on my mind. I had the biggest secret and I have kept it from my friends since we were kids. I wanted to tell them so bad but I didn't know how, I was afraid, afraid of the outcome. Were they going to hate me? Will they still look at me the same? Would they still want to be my friend? All of these questions bottled up into my mind. "Hey Guys, I'm gay!" I wish it was that simple, telling my friends, my mother and my sister, but it's not. The worst could happen, my friends wouldn't want to be friends anymore, my family could disown me, the whole school would look at me weirdly every time they see me, treat me like a walking disease, the homophobs would probably bully me, harass me, kill me even. That may not happen but I was literally thinking the worst right now, God why did I have to be this way? Why couldn't I be normal? I groaned in frustration.

Then I felt something land by my feet, I looked down and saw a lacrosse ball, "Hey, Uh, could you pass that?" I looked up, i nearly choked. My breath got caught in my throat, Troy ho. I had the biggest crush on him since freshman year, he was openly gay and everyone seemed fine with it. I wish I nearly had as much confidence as him, he wasn't embarrassed of his sexuality like I was. Well, I wouldn't say I'm embarrassed of my sexuality just scared of what everyone else thinks. "Um, yeah, sorry." I said and he smiled softly. Oh my god. You're so cute. "It's cool." He replied as I bent down to grab the ball then I handed it to him. "Thanks." He smiled. "No problem." I smiled awkwardly. He began walking away then he stopped, I raised an eyebrow as I watched him. It look like he was hesitating to say something to me. Then he turned to me completely, "uh, your in Mrs.james sociology class right? Third period?" He asked, I nodded. "Oh yeah." I said And he nodded, "I sit in front of you in her class." I know. I stare at your hair everyday, wishing I could run my fingers through it. "Yeah i know." I replied, he nodded again. It went silent, an awkward silence. Then he spoke up again, "uh, this is probably weird to ask considering we don't know each other that well, but I was going to Colitas since practice is over. Do you maybe wanna come?" He said. My heart fluttered, going out with my crush to colitas. If you told me this was gonna happen today I probably would've laughed in your face. A smile slowly spreaded on my face. "Uh sure."

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"So, you knew you've been gay your whole life and you've kept it from your family and now your afraid to tell them because you think they'll disown you?" Troy said and I nodded. "I don't think that's gonna happen, by the things you told me about your friends they seem like very understanding people." He persisted. I silently agreed, he was right. They were understanding but I feel as if they won't understand this subject.

"What if they don't understand?" I questioned. Troy pursed his lips and shrugged, "then they're not your friends." He simply said. "Look, Cameron, there's gonna be people who will accept you and There's people who won't." "That's life, either take the good with the bad or don't take it all, it's your choice, it's your life. If you wanna live your life worrying about what everyone else thinks then that's your choice." Troy shrugged, he was right. I knew he was right. "But a little secret." He whispered as he leaned in, "you'll be miserable." He sent me a half smile, I nodded. "But, Hey, if you do decide to tell the ones you love and they don't accept it, I'm still here and if you ever need to talk..." he trailed as he grabbed my phone and began typing on it then he handed it to me, I looked down to see he put his number in my phone. "Call me." He smiled and I smiled back. He's right, maybe I should tell them.

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Watch out Saiyr and Oscar, Cameron And Troy are here to steal your otp crown.👀

Troy ho
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