Right By My Side [Book 4]

Chapter 2

August Alsina POV

"August, you needa realize that Safaree was my friend too but you needa focus on me and the baby now. We gettin' married so Nicki just gonna gave to..." I cut Bianca off.

"Look! Nicki is my friend. We not fuckin'! She needs a friend, she's gon' thru somethin' Bianca. So shut the fuck up and stop bein' emotional." I shout when Bianca starts to cry and walk away from me.

"Shit! Bianca, wait babe. I'm sorry." I said tryna catch her when she goes upstairs. Then she turns 'round and walks half-way down the steps.

"Do you love her? Do you still love her August?" Bianca asks me.

"W-what," I throw my head back and look down then back up.

"You heard meh." Bianca adds bass in her voice, crossin' her arms.

Ion how she even got to that point of askin' me do I still love Nicki when I proposed to her instead. But to be honest 'bout the whole proposal thing I ain't study it but half those things I said were to Nicki. The only reason why I backed off was 'cause I seen she meant business' bout Safaree. And now that he's dead and gone and she needs somebody there by her.

Since Bianca turned up pregnant I can't be exactly there fo' her how I wanna be there fo' her. To answer Bianca's question, yes I still do love Nicki and I can't and won't ever stop. But at the same time Bianca finna have a baby and I needa stay focus on her too. I'm not even positive that the baby is even mine but I'm not gonna be foul and say nah when it is. Then I'ma feel like shit but what if it ain't mines then I'ma be hurt 'cause I want it to be.

When I was onna stage proposin' to Bianca I was just watchin' Nicki tryna be strong as her smile faded. The entire time I imagined just me and Nicki onna stage and I married her. But I guess wit' that whole incident where I heard Nicki fuckin' will always be that one pain that'll never go away.

Don't gimme wrong I still love her, but whenever I try to grow wit' her that thought gets me. But if only there was no Bianca and no baby I woulda been wit' Nicki and Safaree woulda been history. Not like that but just gone outta picture (damn no better way to say that).

"August, do you or do you not still love Nicki?" Bianca asks firmly.

Bianca snaps me from outta my thoughts and I decide to answer her. "No, I don't love Nicki baby. Nicki is just a friend and she needed somebody there by her. That's all it was. All I want is you."

Bianca comes up to me and wraps her arms 'round my neck and gimme a kiss while I touch her butt. She giggles. "August, no no. That's off limits 'til the baby is outta the oven."

"It's gonna be a long nine months a wait, which is all worth it." I said.

"Anyway baby we needa get ready to go to the funeral." I add in.

"Ooh, right." Bianca said.

Nicki Minaj POV

I'm glad my girl Ariana came through fo' me to sing at the funeral... The song that will be perfect. Safaree did say if he died he wanted somebody to sing at his funeral and I wanna do that. I don't think rap music or anythin' he wanted would be a good look so I went fo' something mo' appropriate. So she gonna sing My Everything at the funeral 'cause it's so much better. I know it is.

"Thank you all fo' comin'." I said and immediately start cryin' when Ariana begins to sing.

I cried enough tears
To see my own reflection in them
And then it was clear
I can’t deny, I really miss him

To think that I was wrong
I guess you don’t know what you got 'til it’s gone
Pain is just a consequence of love
I’m saying sorry for the sake of us

He wasn’t my everything 'til we were nothing
And it’s taking me a lot to say
But now that he’s gone, my heart is missing something
So it’s time I push my pride away

’Cause you are, you are, you are my everything
You are, you are, you are my everything

I know you’re not far
But I still can’t handle all the distance
You’re travelling with my heart
I hope this is a temporary feeling

’Cause it’s too much to bear
Without you and I know sorry ain’t the cure
If I cross your mind just know I’m yours
'Cause what we got is worth fighting for

'Cause you are...

You weren't my everything 'til we were nothing
And it’s taking me a lot to say
Now that you're gone, my heart is missing something
So it’s time I push my pride away

You are, you are, you are my everything
You are, you are, you are my everything

You are, you are, you are
You are, you are, you are my everything