Right By My Side [Book 4]

Chapter 25

RECAP: CHAPTER 24

"Nigga just let that shit go already." I shout at August as he takes a few steps back from me. He looks me up and down and mugs me.

Are you fuckin' serious? If it was the other way 'round you woulda dropped me like a bad habit." August said.

"No I wouldn't have August." I said, my voie strains itself.

"You kno' I wouldn't. " I said.

"Ooh yeah 'cause all I would have to do is sleep wit' another bitch and creep back inna bed wit' you. Is that it Nicki? You want me to be like Safaree? 'Cause I can't and won't be like the nigga. May he rest in peace." August said.

"You can never be like Safaree!" I shout.

"You right 'cause I ain't neva cheat dammit!" August yells.

"I ain't neva want you to be like Safaree. Matter fact you twice as better than he has ever been to me." I said, nearly boutta cry.

"Than why Nicki, why?!?! Why did you cheat?" August beggin' to kno'.

"I don't fuckin' kno' why I did what I did. I wish I can say I was drunk, but I can't,  even that ain't no excuse." I said.

"But Nicki ion understand why you would. What did he do that was better like explain this to me Nicki." August said.

"Just admit that you loved him more than you loved me." August said.

"August that ain't true and you kno' it." I said to him.

"Ion anythin' Nicki. I wish I ain't kno' you." August said, walkin' towards the door.

"August," I scream his name.

"Don't'chu leave me again!" I scream.

"Nah, I'm done Nicki." August said.

"August!! I was afraid.'' I shout.

"Afraid of what?" August asks.

"Afraid that I would lose you. And if I didn't listen you woulda been dead too." I said.

August Alsina POV

I coulda sworn I don' seen Tyga's face drop just like mines don' did too. Did Nicki really say that? And what dumb nigga finna kill me? I can't leave now after that. We both gon' insane 'cause we arguin' fo' no reason, it's like we both wanna win. But can't. After that last outburst from Nicki I most definitely close the damn door and walk back over to her.

"I couldn't risk ya life August. There I said it." Nicki said as she covers her mouth wit' her hands.

I go back over to her and just stand in front of her while I put both hands on her arms. I look her deeply inna eyes when she turns away. I walk her over to a chair and let her sit down in it. I do the same myself, but drag it over close to her. Ion what to say to that now.

"What else," I say calm as fuck. Her eyes open up wide as fuck too.

"What you mean?" She whimpers.

"What else is there Nicki? Don't lie to me either." I said, warnin' her.

"I'ma give you this time to tell me the truth and if I feel that you lyin' or hidin' anythin' I'ma leave ya ass here." I said.

"August, please," she hoarse.

"Nicki tell me." I said.

"August he use to beat and rape me. He's the reason fo' the abortion, he's the reason fo' a lot of things. And, I played my part in it too but I thought what I did was protectin' you. There I said err'thang August. Do you believe me?" Nicki asks me.

"Please, don't leave me to be wit' Bianca. She don' did you dirty like come on. Do you honestly think that baby is yours?" She adds.

I look at Nicki and shake my head when I get and clutch my fist and walk over to a wall and punch the shit outta it. I hear somethin' pop and my hand is bleedin' and hurtin' like hell. But, I'm so fed up wit' the fact that she said what Safaree did to her. Why she ain't tell me? He lucky he six feet under or else I woulda been the fuckin' reason that he's even there.

"Fuck! Nicki! Shit!" I said as I hold onto my hand when Nicki runs over to me and looks.

"Are you okay August?" She asks.

"Nah man I think I... God dammit." I cuss myself out.

"You needa hospital August." Nicki said.

"Come wit' me then." I said.

"Ion if that's a good idea..." I cut her off.

"That wasn't up fo' debate. Come wit' me Nicki." I said and we leave the studio together.