Find You Again ~ (Third Book of The Trilogy)

8.

DEMI P.O.V.: the next morning, when I walked out of the bathroom, Logan looked at me.

Logan: hey, you left me alone (I smiled at him and sat in front of him in silence) are you okay?

Demi: no, I'm really not okay

Logan: what happens? Do you wanna talk? (He sat on the bed and grabbed my hands)

Demi: yes...we need to

Logan: it's something bad?

Demi: yea...it is (he threw a worried stare at me and I pressed my lips together)

Logan: tell me, you can tell me anything

Demi: (I looked at him and couldn't help but feel loved by that boy. He really was being the best thing I had in life) I...

Logan: go ahead baby (he said as he caressed my cheek with his thumb)

Demi: I...I don't want to hurt you, I promise...you're the best thing I have right now and you're such an amazing person Log but I don't want to hurt you worse

Logan: I think I know what you're talking about (he smiled sadly)

Demi: we can't be together, you can't continue falling in love with me because I don't think I'll ever get to love you with the same intensity that you already love me...I'm honored to be loved by someone like you, and there's nothing I enjoy more than spending the whole afternoons with you watching tv or talking random shit but I can't be in a relationship...at least...for now (he nodded)

Logan: I get that you can't fall in love with someone when you have your eyes in other person

Demi: what?

Logan: I saw how you looked at Nick, how he looked at you, how Joe and Sophie looked at you both...I'm not that blind to not see two people who have pending things with each other

Demi: he is married, there's nothing from his side

Logan: believe me, there is...he was jealous today Demi, ever since he saw me entering the house...you saw his face when we kissed...he can't tell he wasn't jealous

Demi: still, he's not important...you are. I'm sorry I can't give you the love that you deserve, you're truly perfect for everyone, the man that any girl would love to have and the fact that you love me is just surreal...but I don't love you like that and I'm afraid that for a long time I won't be able to love someone with that intensity because firstly I need to learn how to love myself again. But I'm really sorry (a tear rolled down ny cheek and he hugged me)

Logan: hey. It's okay...don't worry about me, I'm happy seeing you happy, I'll always be happy for you, no matter what. And I think you're right, I deserve someone who loves me with the same strength and you do too. I love you Demi, probably more than I loved some of my exs but I understand what you're saying and it's okay...I'll continue loving you and maybe some day when we're older, like 70 years old, if we are still single, we can try again and you can love me like I love you (I laughed making him smile and he put some hair behind my ear)

Demi: I'll never get over the fact that I broke your heart like this but I think this is for the best (he nodded and smiled looking at me) what?

Logan: can I kiss you one more time?

Demi: Loga- (and he did, his lips pressed with mine in a not so long kiss but a kiss that tasted like goodbye)

Logan: I love you

Demi: I know (I said as another tear rolled down my face)

Logan: I better leave now, I have to buy some things (he stood up and got dressed) my mom is waiting for me

Demi: can we still be friends?

Logan: obviously...forever

Demi: forever (he smiled and I walked him to the door)

To be honest, once he left the house I felt way better. I love him like a friend and I knew that if I continued with that act he'd end up hurt worse.