The Outside Doesn't Count (Ongoing)

Chapter 13

As he hovered over me I was in a trance. I then smelled a familiar scent, oh his intoxicating scent. I'm glad to see even though he's changed, he still has something from his old self.

I snap back to reality and notice our lips were literally 1 centimeter apart. I started to blush and opened my eyes wide. I see him trying to hold in his laugh. So he's teasing me? Well,two can play at that game. I put on my most innocent face.

"I've wanted to tell you this for a long time..", I said under my breath averting my eyes from him. He looked confused and backed his face up a couple inches.

"Ever since you kissed me at the park... I've felt these feelings I've never felt before."I said trying really hard to keep a straight face. Well I wasn't entirely lying...I have been feeling anger and disgust and have been really annoyed lately.

" I..I think I'm in love with you Chess. ",I say blatantly. Ugh...I want to laugh so hard at his wide eyed expression. A light tint of red covers his cheeks. He backs up like two feet. I couldn't take it anymore. I laughed out loud holding my stomach.

As I wiped the loose tears from my eyes after laughing, I look at him with his face still red. He sat beside me and I sat up beside him.

" That's what you get for teasing me checkers.. ",I say with a glare as my expression stiffens. He gave me a quick smirk but it faded quickly.

He looks up into the start sky and takes a deep breath, like a sigh of relief. Damn..did my words really impact him that hard? There was an awkward silence between us. The golden retriever had gone about its business a while ago. All that could be heard was the sound of crickets creaking. Then the silence was broken by Chess' raspy voice.

"I didn't move just because of the bullying..", he says in a sad tone. I look at him in a curious expression. He then continues without looking at me.

"When I moved away, the bullying was just a small cause. My daf said got a new job in Valen(the town about a day away from Galenia).
I was sad that I didn't get to see you anymore, I tried to visit, but I never had the time and it was too far." Then he stopped, his fist clenched and his jaw tightened, like he was trying to get the words out.

"Then I found out the real reason we moved to Valen. Turns out I am not a only child. My parents had a daughter, three years before me, but gave her up for adoption because they weren't ready to handle a child." I could see the hurt in his face and hear the anger in his tone. All I could do was gape at his words..why was he telling me...practically a stranger something so personal about him?

"Her name was Guen. Turns out no one had adopted her since they gave her up for adoption and she had a heart disease.
My parents went to look after her. When I found out I was shocked. I always wanted a sibling and i had one all along. As I looked at my sister in pain at the hospital bed, I looked at my parents. They had a sense of regret in their eyes. The day I found out we were at the hospital talking to her. She was really beautiful. She had green eyes like my mother and long brown hair like my mother. She smiled and laughed even though she was in grave pain. My parents left the room to consult with the doctors and left me there with Guen." He stops and peeks a glance at me to see if I was listening. As I look at him, without noticing, one single tear comes out of my left eye. He continued with a heavy hearted sigh and when he began talking again his voice creaks, like he wanted to cry but held back the tears.

"A minute after they left she started to seize up. As she was shaking uncontrollably on the bed the machine she was connected to started to go crazy. I don't know what I was thinking but I just sat there.. watching her. Soon she stopped moving. One minute later a doctor and nurse rushes in. They took out the defibrillator and started to shock her with it. I just stood there blankly as my sister layed there without movement. Shortly after my parents came rushing in and hugged me in tight embrace. At that moment I didn't know what happened."  A tear start rolling down his cheeks as he said those words and closed his eyes. His voice was trembling.   
All I did was watch him while another tear ran down my cheek. I sat there wide eyed facing him.

"Chess..I-" he cut me off before I could finish my sentence.

"As the days went by I realized what had happened. My own flesh and blood had a heart attack right in front of me and I did nothing!" He yelled at the top of his lungs and clenched his fist and looked up trying to suck back in his tears. He was shaking.
"I am a horrible person! At first I blamed my parents but I was the one who let her die!" At this point there was no point hiding the tears now. He started crying silently and uncontrollably. All that he has been holding back came out in ugly amounts.

Without thinking I embrace him in a tight hug which threw us on the soft grass, his back on the ground and me on top of him. He seems shocked at first but hugs me back. Them the silent cry turns to big a big ugly cry. I just hug him tighter. We stay in that position for about 10 minutes until he let me go. When he pulled away it felt like I was robbed from his warmness. I rubbed my arm and looked at the ground feeling embarrassed of just hugging him like that. He just had and expressionless, tears stained face.

"Chess, it wasn't your fault... Okay?", I said I'm a soft soothing voice. He looked at me and got up off the ground and started walking away. Confused I ran up to him and touched him on the shoulder.

"What's wrong? ", I ask.

"Leave me alone." He says in a cold and aggressive time as he shakes off my hand. I just stand there in disbelief. Is that the person that just spilled his heart out to me? How can he change moods so quick. His bipolar ness is getting me pissed off really bad. I check for the time. Shit! It was 8:30, I need to get home.

I caught the bus back to town and arrived at 9:00 pm.

I silently opened the door using the spare key and silently closed it trying not to wake Cole. I knew if he saw me come home this late he would drown me with unwanted questions. As I tiptoed up the steps I see the lamp in the living room come on. I turned around and saw Cole on the sofa with my grandmother's old reading glasses on staring at me with a 'don't you dare take another step young lady ' look. It was creepy..considering he was my brother.

"Why are you home so late, I ordered pizza since I was too lazy and ate it all because you were late.", I just rolled eyes.

"Why are you wearing grandmas glasses, you look like a dweeb.", I say ignoring his question.

" Don't change the subj -", I cut him of before he could finish.

"I'm so sleepy see you tomorrow dweeb," I say as I fake yawn and run up the stairs. I can hear him calling me but I just lock myself in my room and plop on my bed. I look through my window and look into Chess' room. It was empty... I wonder were he is...no..why am I thinking about that bipolar swine?

Yes! I just remembered it is Friday. A weekend of alone time and books. Maybe I can got to the skate board park to practice after I finish my assignments. I feel this weekend is gonna be pretty good.

Author:

Sorry I haven't published in like a gazillion years. I'm writing another book but I'm not sure if I should post it. Do you think Avy can have a peaceful weekend...well let's wait and see😀

See ya ily😊