Down Fall...

Chapter 28

I'm re-debuting today. It's weird not having my members by my side but I'm doing it for them.

"Hazel, go." My manager says and I'm rushed onto the stage.

I'm performing my new song, "Deadly" which I wrote about my two weeks. I'm nominated for three awards as well.

I stand front in center and adjust my mic. The lights come on and I sing along to the music. I wrote this song, produced, choreographed, and released it in three days. I also haven't slept in three days.

I look at the crowd as normal and wink at Seungmin when I see him. I look over to my fans and see Ava in the crowd with the rest of my group. I try to contain myself as the song ends.

I run off stage when the lights dim and straight to them.

"Holy shit. What are guys doing here?" I ask hugging them.

"What do you mean? We wouldn't miss your debute for the world." Jimin says and I wipe my tears.

"Hazel, dressing room. It's almost time for awards." My manager finds me.

"Go. Be great and win those awards." Chae says. I wave to them as I run to my dressing room.

I get fixed up and go to sit in my seat.

I'm not alone since twice is sitting at the table as well.

"You did so well. Congrats on re-debuting." Dahyun leans over and whispers to me.

"Thank you. And good luck with your comback." I say and she thanks me.

Then awards start I get nervous.

"And the award for best comeback artist goes to..." I cross my fingers and shut my eyes. "Hazel Lee!" They say.

I stand up and walk up on stage. I recive my award and walk to the mic.

"Thank you. I would like to thank my friends and ex group here. With out them pushing me to follow my dreams I wouldn't be in Korea even. So thank you all so very much." I say and walk off stage.

I sit back in my seat and look at the award. It has my name written in it.

And after a couple more the final award I've been nominated for finally comes.

"And the rookie award goes to..." I hold my breath.

"Stray Kids!" She says and I breathe out. I clap for my best friend. Even though I didn't receive the award I won at least one tonight.

"Step out, hello we are Stray Kids." They say and Chan stands at the mic.

"Thank you. I don't really have words at the moment. I thought the award was going to go to Hazel or Itzy." He says and my ears get hot.

"But thank you for letting us receive this award and helping our dream live on. Stray kids every where all around the world, you make stray kids stay. Thank you." He finishes and they all walk off stage.

I give a thumbs up to Seungmin with a genuine smile. He smiles back and walks back to his seat.

After the show...

I said goodbye to the girls and promised to meet up with Seungmin tomorrow. When I get home I take my heels off first thing. I took them off at the show as well.

I walk in and grab my laptop and bag before heading off to the company. I don't even bother to change, all I did change was my shoes.

I step in the front door and wave at the lady.

"Great performance today." She says.

"Thank you." I respond going to the elevator and up to my studio.

The elevator doors ding and I step off. I walk down the hall and into my studio.

I place my bag on the couch and pull my trophy out. I put it on the shelf with my others. I thought I should display them here instead of my bed room where no one would see them.

I sit down at my computer and start to work.

After a couple of hours I play it back to myself. And as I do I close my eyes. I ended up falling asleep at my desk.

Zzz...

I wake up to my voice vibrating like crazy. I open it to see a bunch of missed calls from Seungmin. I automatically call him back.

"Hey I got all your messages, what's wrong?" I ask fearing the worst.

"You need to make up with Chan. I don't care if two don't get back together and just become friends but you guys need to talk." He says and I sigh knowing that nothing life threatening happened.

"Why?" I ask and he groans.

"Jyp is going to kick him from the company if he doesn't produce music. And he hasn't since your guys break up. Just talk to him. He leaves you voice mails all the time and texts you non-stop. Please for me and my group to get there leader back." He whines and I scrunch my nose.

"Fine. Give me a couple hours I just woke up." I say with a yawn.

"Okay, sorry. But please try to hurry." He says and we hang up.

I scroll on my phone and find his contact. I scroll through all his messages he's sent me about being sorry and wanting to talk or meet.

Then I listen to the voice mails.

"Hey Hazel, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have screamed at you like that. I just hope you could forgive me and we could at least be friends again. I miss you." Was one of them.

I blink a couple times to try to stop a few tears. One manages to escape.

I stare at my phone well I hold my knees to my chest in my chair.

I finally after much debate, pick up my phone and dial his number.

I chew on my thumb as it rings.

"Hello?" A voice ask weary on the other end.

"I'm sorry."