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thursday

july 18th
3:17am my life is waiting to fall apart. i will lose this fucking weight though. im thinking about going to the library during school lunch this year. new school though, i mean brand new. im the first year to ever be in the new school. but, yeah. it's better to read a book rather than suffer, right? why am i think about this at 3:30am months before school? because im a paranoid freak. whatevvsss planning on eating >500cal today. goodnight.

4:47 so far so good. yesterday after my soccer game my legs HUURRTTT. but today was leg day so i did my exercises as normal(floor exercises) but before that i did some cardio and i was left waddling from my legs hurting so mUcH. i just got back from a bike ride too. all of these were short so i only burned around 300cals. don't overwork yourselves!! 🥺

6:25 what's up with people eating my goddamn chicken?!!!!first my dad takes my chicken and tater tots and then this!! somebody just ate part of it! i think it was simba but he's a cat so i can't hit him for it😔 im not an animal abuser tyvm! how am i supposed to log my chicken? create a portion size that says "my cat ate some"? that damn cat!! ugh! i guess i should log 3/4.. :(((

10:30pm im pretty sad rn. i just miss cameron so fucking much. i wish he could just come back.😭 at 8:00pm i got dinner, cauliflower rice, asparagus, and chicken. well now its 2 hours later. i ate 2 small asparagus pieces probably 1/5 cup of cauliflower if 1/5 is even a thing, and im trying to finish my 3/4 cup of chicken. i feel sick to my stomach. i feel like i ate too much today. i feel my stomach getting bigger but i want to finish my chicken..im throwing the rest of the food away when im done with my chicken. today's dinner went horrible. 😔

10:45pm couldn't do it, gave some to my cat and threw the rest away. final calories: (picture above)



net calories are -135. today was a terrible day. i feel so full but i barely ate. probably from that binge last night🤢🤮 gonna drink water until i go to bed. that's the end of my log. goodnight.