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bitch october

hey guys,,

october was full of me maintaining while trying to recover and then relapsing and then recover and relapsing and so on and so forth. i felt so vunerable and i couldn't update.

im at a hotel that i've been stuck in for the past 3 days because of my shit parents and i accidently chugged a bottle of starbucks vanilla shit because i was so thirsty.

a lot of shit has been going on that's been affecting my eating like school, relationships, break ups blahblahblah. i cried my eyes out last night and at this point im numb so i'm not even going to say "my goal is to not eat for the rest of the day" because i know for sure that im not going to. feel too sick.

little update for the past month though.