The holidays came quickly .
My family and I had packed our stuff and loaded it into our 4 wheel drive .
We had about a ten hour drive till we reached port Macquarie .
We got our asses up around 5 in the morning. I had pretty much no sleep the previous night cause I was up almost all of the night talking to Steph about how much I had wished her mum would have let her come with us .
No matter how much we begged and pleaded her mum just wouldn't budge .
So instead of being able to rest on her shoulders on our way there I was stuck sitting next to my sister and having no one to talk to .
Especially cause we had no Internet for the whole week so I couldn't talk to her for a whole seven days .!
The drive there was long .
We stopped at several different locations for food , toilets and for petrol .
By the time we got there it was the late afternoon .
We got into our cabin /caravan , where we were staying at and started to unpack our things . I had a double bed to sleep in and it was comfy as .
But I have to admit it would have been better if Steph was laying there with me .
Anyway ,
We rested straight away . That was the longest and most satisfying sleep i had had in ages .
A few days later we were at the beach . Mum had sent a picture of the beach to Steph asking her if she wishes she was here .
After that conversation my heart broke . It had sounded like she honestly hated me . She replied with "no I am Doing better things right now " .
And then a series of messages followed and it left me felling sad .
I realized in that moment that I was inlove with that girl .
I couldn't believe it . I was Inlove with a girl !!
From that day on I was both happy and sad and my emotions couldn't control themselves .
The last night of our holiday ,my family and I went out to dinner to the club 'for all you can eat'.
I found myself subconsciously thinking about her . I thought about what I would say to her as soon as I got home .
I was so exited !!
We drove home the next day .
The drive back was somehow shorter than the drive there .
As soon as I got home I messaged her.
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She had told me she had broken up with her ex girlfriend. I was so happy
So i told her how I had felt about her and she told me it was to late . She was already taken
I was to late .
Tears rushed down my face ,hitting the floor as I sobbed harder.
Someone had gotten to her before I could . All I was thinking was if I didn't go away she would have been mine !
I was gutted . This girl was apparently " inlove "with me but couldn't wait another week for me.
I begged her to break up with this girl . I pleaded and eventually she agreed and Broke up with her . I was relieved .
But a few moments later she message me and said I have to be with this other girl .
That was it .
I felt dead .
