Chasing the Sun (1D)

Chapter 25: history and deicisons

Chapter 25: history and decisions

Once we were all on the yacht and out into the water, everyone went off to do their own thing. Niall went off to find food, Liam sat on the couch on his phone, Jenna lounged on the deck soaking up vitamin D, Louis and Harry were in a heated discussion and Zayn and I were in a room talking. 

'So, are you still okay with Jake and Jenna?' I asked him. 

'Well, I still like her and maybe love but if she loves him well I won't interfere. Because I know how love feels like and I know she's happy with him. I'm glad he's taking care of her. And I'm sort of seeing a girl right now just to take my mind off her. Perrie understands, she's here to help me distract myself.' He tells me. 

'That's good. You're a great guy, you know. You know where you stand and all.' I nodded to him. 

'What are you going to so about the boys?' He asked curiously and I sighed. 

'If you don't want to talk about it, I understand.' He backtracked. 

'No, it's not that. It's just... I don't know. I like both of them so much. Harry is so good to me, he tells me what he feels and he gives me what I want. But Louis is like a best friend, he knows how to make me happy. Ever since that night Louis stayed at my house I just have a strong feeling towards him. He saved my life you know.' I pointed out. 

'How?' He asked. That's when I realised I never told them the story. I never told them about Blake and the threats. And I need them to know to understand. 

'I need to tell everyone this. I'll tell you all after we talk.' I sighed and he nodded. 

'I like Harry. I really do. But I think it's Louis for me. I'm sure it's Louis I want.' I whispered. 

'Then tell him.' 

'I don't know, Zayn. I don't want to break Harry.' 

'You won't break Harry. He will understand. He told me he would respect your decision. He told me he will always be there for you.' I closed me eyes. 

'Thats just the problem, Zayn. Louis never told me what he would do and Harry did. But Louis knows me better, he understands me.' I opened my eyes to find Zayn staring intently at me. 

'Go with your heart not what you think is right.' 

I closed my eyes again and listened to my heart. I felt the laughter, the happiness and the gratefulness. I opened my eyes. 

'I know who to pick.' I whisper. Zayn smiled at me. 

'Thats good, Ali. Now you should tell us how Louis saved your life.' I nodded my head. Zayn got up and walked around the yacht and one by one, they all came in. They all sat on the floor while I sat on the couch. I felt like a teacher and they were my kindergarten class. They all stared at me, expectantly. I sighed and began my story. 

'Before I begin, I think we should let jake and janelle know as well.' I say. Jenna and Niall got their phones out and dialed both of them. Jenna and Niall told them what was going and put them on loud speaker. I let out a big breath and looked down at my lap. 

'That day I dropped Louis off at your house was the day after Louis saved my life. He saved me from Blake. Blake was my ex boyfriend. We dated for a year and a half. He was so good to me at first. It was when we had that massive fight on year 11, janelle. We met at the shops and we hung out. I told him everything. He told me he believed me and he loved me. He made me happy. Then halfway through our relationship, he became abusive and psychopathic. He hit me a few times at first but then he realised I didn't care much about myself. I get more worried about others than me. So he began threatening them. There was this one time I said no to him and he threatened his sister. I stopped believing him at that point but when I said no to his threats he really did hurt her. So I got scared and never left. But he took it too far. He made an attempt to kill his parents and that was when I called the police. They arrested him at the end of last year. Then on Monday night he came back. He was going to kill me for putting him in jail. And then Lou showed up and saved me. Then on Thursday night, I started to get anonymous death threats. Saying things about me and my boyfriend getting it. I didn’t know who the boyfriend was until last night. You know how I ran away at the bonfire? Yeah, I met this girl. Her name is Sam and she’s Blake’s girlfriend. She wants to get me back for putting Blake in jail. Louis is the so-called boyfriend. She’s just as psychopathic as Blake. I’m scared, you know. I’m scared that she might hurt one of you guys, accidentally. Even you, Janelle. That sounded harsh. But what I’m saying is, don’t try and get yourself involved with this. I’m telling you because you needed to know. And Louis, I’m sorry for bringing you into this. I thought everything was over when I sent Blake to jail for the second time. I guess I was wrong.’ By the end of that I was in tears. Louis walked over to me and I cried into his chest. Niall and Liam had silent tears. Zayn and Harry were frozen with plain shock on their faces. Jenna was sobbing, she still gets upset about what Jake did to me. I can hear Jake gasping over the speaker and Janelle was holding her breath. 

‘Ali, I’m sorry.’ Janelle whispered but it was loud enough for everyone to hear. ‘I’m so sorry, Ali.’ She whispered and she hung up. I cried even more.

‘We’re all here for you, Ali. We will most likely get involved whether you like it or not.’ Jake says over the phone.

‘Yeah, no matter what, we’re here.’ Niall followed on.

‘I never would have guess, you know.’ Zayn murmured.

‘Please don’t cry over this.’ Liam whispered.

‘Shh, Ali. Don’t cry. We will all help you and we will all protect you.’ Harry said, hugging me around the waist. This gesture made my cry a lot more. Because it’s Harry. 

‘I will always protect you. I promised you that when I saved you.’ Louis whispered in my ear.

‘I’ll kick that bitch’s ass.’ Jenna whispered and I laughed through my tears. 

‘Okay, I gotta go, guys. I’ll meet you all at the house. Don’t worry about any of this, Ali. We’re all here for you.’ Jake said and we all said our goodbyes and he hung up. 

I took my phone out and went to text Jenna that I’ve made my decision. i know who to choose and I told her who. She read the text and her eyes looked up and it read ‘you sure’. I nodded my head and she smiled.

‘Harry, I need to talk to you.’ I say through my tears. He looked a bit worried and Louis looked scared as he watched us walk out. We went out onto the deck. My heart was already breaking.

‘I’m sorry, Harry. I like you. i like you so much but I’ve chosen Louis. Maybe sometime in the future, I don’t know. I’m sorry for this. I’m so sorry.’ I sobbed again. My voice faltered at the end. Harry had tears in his eyes.

‘Like I said, I’ll respect your decision. I love you, Ali. i already know that. I love you enough to let you go. I’ll be your friend, I’ll be your brother, I’ll be anything. Just as long as I’m still near you. I do love you, Ali. And yeah, maybe sometime in the future.’ His voice broke at the end. I cried a lot. I gave him a hug and said sorry through my eyes. 

‘I’m so sorry, Harry.’ I whisper in his ear and I kissed him on the cheek.

‘I love you, Ali.’ He whispers back. 

‘I’m going to kiss you. For the last time.’ And again my voice broke at the end. He nodded and i leaned in. 

I felt the same sparks. I felt the same butterflies. I felt the same beats of my heart. But It’s Louis who I want. I’m so sorry, Harry. I whisper in my head. We pulled away and I walked back inside. My heart already breaking. i couldn’t look back at him, I don’t have the heart to watch him break down. I walked up to Louis and pulled him into the bathroom.

‘What’s going on, Ali?’ Louis asked me. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes.

‘I chose you, Lou.’ I whispered and I heard Louis’ sharp intake of breath.

‘You-you really mean it?’ Louis sounded a bit hesitant.

‘Yes.’ I whispered and I opened my eyes. His eyes read happy, he was so happy. But his face was straight. 

‘What about Harry?’ He whispered.

‘I talked to him. He respects my decision and he told me he loves me enough to let me go.’ I felt the tears spill.

‘He’s a good man, Ali. Why didn’t you choose him?’ it was as though he was trying to change my mind.

‘Because I love you.’ I murmured. Yes, I do love him. I guess I fell in love when we went out on our date. I realised it when he told me he reminded my of his promise of protection.

‘I love you too, Ali.’ He said and he leaned down to kiss me.

Everything felt so right. But in another way, something felt wrong. I brushed off the feeling. But I have a feeling it will haunt me, it will always be there. I know it.

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A/N

Who’s heartbroken? I am. I’m literally in a fetal position right now. I just can’t right now. 

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