|SASHAY FANFIC| it was always you

The Hug

Shay's POV
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I wished Ashely hadn't have told Sasha about mine and Matt's fight. It wasn't her business to tell. But Sasha was so sweet about it. I always felt so safe when I was with her. She hugged me, and I'd never felt more loved.
Shay stop! I can't feel this way about her. She's taken.
I couldn't help it. When she touched me all I could feel was butterflies.
Oh god why?
I walked to my car and got in. I sat there for a minute trying to process everything.
We had an Emison scene tomorrow. I don't know how that would go. I wanted her the way Emily wanted Alison.
I started my car, and I was about to pull out when Sasha came and walked over. I rolled my window down.
"Ya know if you and Matt aren't on the best terms right now, you can always stay at my place,"
"Sasha thank you so much, that's really kind. But I need to talk to Matt."
"Well my door is always open,"
"Thank you, again. I appreciate your concern,"
She hugged me once again and just before we let go, I felt her lips on my temple. Then she left. I was stunned. I know that girls do that with their girl friends but, this was different. I can't keep spinning this out of proportion. She's with Hudson for god sake. I just need a good nights sleep.
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It was 9:30 when I got home. I pulled in not ready to face my boyfriend. I got out of the car and trudged up to my house. I walk in, the house is cold. Just how we like it. Matt is watching TV in the living room. I don't know how to approach him. We haven't really talked since last night. I just want to forget it honestly.
"Hi honey," I say as I approach him. I give him a quick kiss. He kisses me back.
I head to the kitchen to get a snack. Before long I hear him behind me, with his hands at my waist.
"I'm sorry about our fight babygirl, I understand if you're not ready to talk about things, take all the time you need. I want you to know that I'm here for you."
"Thank you, I'm sorry too. I just need some time. I promise I'm okay. I love you," I felt guilty saying that. I did love him, maybe less than Sasha.
He leans in a kisses me passionately, and continues it. I don't want this right now. I need to focus on what I'm feeling and what I'm going to do about tomorrow. I pull away, he obviously wants more but I'm not giving it tonight.
"I'm sorry babe I need to get some work done and get some sleep, I have a big day tomorrow."
"Okay I'll be up in a little bit," he reassured.
I head upstairs to our room. I didn't think he'd come around that easily. I don't know if that's bad or good. I really can't even think about tomorrow. I just need to go to bed. I slip into some pajama shorts and a tank top, and get under my silk sheets and drift off.