|SASHAY FANFIC| it was always you

The Price of Drinking

Sasha's POV

I watched Shay fall asleep in our bed. I felt so close to her and I felt so much for her. She was so perfect. I wanted to stay in this moment forever. But I needed to call Hudson, it haunted in the back of my mind. I didn't want to deal with it anymore. I got up gently, not wanting to wake up Shay, and grabbed my phone. I wasn't prepared to hear his voice, I could hear the hurt in it.
"Hello," he said. he had just woken up
"Hi," I replied.
There was silence for a moment.
"How are you?"
"I've been better,"
Another pause.
"I saw your comment,"
"Are you with her now? I saw the photos but I want it from you,"
"Yea, we're together." I didn't want to admit that to him. I know how it would hurt him and twist the knife.
"It's been a week Sasha, and you've got a completely different life now?"
"You have to understand that I've felt something for her, for so long,"
"How am I supposed to understand that? We were together for 3 years, and you threw it all away in the matter of a week,"
"Hudson, I loved you, I still do. Just not in the same way."
"I don't believe that,"
"Don't be in denial, you need to let me go,"
"How? You're everywhere in my life, our house, our bed, our dogs. You can't expect me to just forget about you, like have so easily done,"
"Can't you see that this hurts me too?" My voice cracked.
"No, because you've run off with her and completely forgot about me. It's like I never existed,"
"Well it does,  it wasn't easy to break up with you. It wasn't my choice,"
"Right,"
"Why would I choose to love Shay and break your heart in the process?"
"Why would I choose to love Shay at all when I was with you. I didn't choose anything Hudson. I won't lie to you, I am happier with her, but I still care about you. It hurts me that I hurt you,"
I heard him sigh.
"You need someone better than me,"
"I had the best when I was with you,"
"I'm asking you to forget about me,"
He didn't say anything, and neither did I for a moment.
"Take care of yourself, okay?"
Nothing.
"Goodbye Hudson," I breathed out a sigh.
I hoped Shay hadnt heard any of that.
It was true, I probably wouldn't have been with her, if I had the choice. But Shay was the best thing that happened to me. She was my best friend, she always has been, even now. She made me feel so safe. She was so friendly and kind to me. I always wanted to be around her, and my heart sunk when she left. She completed me. I watched her sleep. She looked so peaceful and calm.
My phone vibrated, I dreaded a text from Hudson but got the opposite.
Ashley Benson Wanna get drinks?
Sasha Pieterse I cant drink I'm not 21
Ashley Benson the drinking age is 18. Besides we aren't going anywhere.
Sasha Pieterse in that case I'll be right down! Shay is asleep.
Ashley Benson well she's gonna miss out. Meet you in the lobby.

I felt bad for leaving Shay, but she needed her rest, and I wasn't that tired, at least not terribly. I grabbed a note and left it next to Shay to tell her where I was, and left quietly. I was grateful for the distraction. I didn't want to be miserable all night thinking of Hudson.

"Hey girl!" Lucy said.
"Hey ladies," I said.
"So glad you could make it!" Ashley said.
"Where's Shay?" Troian asked.
"She's asleep in our room," I replied.
"In your honeymoon suite! Marlene told us," Lucy said.
"She did?"
"Yep, she wanted to do something nice for you guys," Trojan added.
"The room is so elegant and gorgeous. With a big king bed and a balcony. It's really thoughtful of her. I need to thank her,"
"Wow," Lucy said.
"You can thank her later, let's get drinking," Ashely said.
We laughed at her and took our seats at the bar.
"Evening Ladies, what can I get for you?" Our bartender greeted.
"1st round is on me y'all are on your own after that," Ashely said
"Scotch on the rocks," Ashely said.
"Gin and Tonic," troian ordered
"Manhattan," Lucy said
"Whiskey Sour," I said.
The bartender got busy and we visited.
"Hitting the hard stuff tonight Sash?"
"I called Hudson," I said bluntly.
"What why?" Ashley asked.
"He commented a heartbreak emoji on the picture of Shay and I that I posted,"
"That's kind of shady," Lucy said.
"Right, and on the phone I just explained that I was with Shay and how I felt about her,"
"How'd he take it?" Lucy asked.
"Not good if you're drinking Whiskey," Ashely said.
"I just want to forget about it and him. I feel horrible for hurting him,"
"You had to follow your heart, Sash." Troian said.
"Alright ladies, scotch on the rocks, gin and tonic, Manhattan, and whiskey sour," he said sliding our drinks to us.
"Thank you," we said.
We all sipped our drinks.
"You can only ever make yourself happy," troian said.
"I love that," Lucy said.
I nodded and took a big sip.
"Don't beat yourself up Sash, or drink too much because you'll regret it tomorrow," Troian said.
"I thought you guys would be too tired to do anything," I said
"Oh we are, we're all exhausted I'm sure. But alcohol sounded good to end a hard day." Troian said.
"Sometimes you just gotta drink," Ashley said downing her scotch.
"I didn't know you liked scotch Ash," I said.
"Oh yeah, its the best. Wanna do some shots guys?" Ashley challenged.
"Depends, what are we drinking?" Lucy asked.
"Let me surprise you," she said calling the waiter over and pointing to what she wanted.
I finished my drink too and was chewing on the cherry stick. I watched the bartender work. I let myself go, I wanted the alcohol to take me.
He passed out our shots and we took them at once.
"Woo Tequila," Lucy said.
"Could I get a strawberry daiquiri," I asked.
"Yes ma'am,"
"Make that 2," Ashley said.
"You tryna get fucked up tonight?" Ashley said.
I picked up my watered down whiskey and held up my glass and cheered to her and sipped.
"Shay is gonna kill us," troian said.
"Oh please. She's dead asleep,"
"2 Strawberry Daiquiris," He said.
Ash and I cheered and sipped our daiquiris. I've never really been to a bar it was nice to be out with my girls and legally drink.
"Let's take a selfie girls," Lucy said.
Lucy handing me the phone and we took a few pics. Ashley and I took a drink and I chocked on it, cause I was laughing too much.
"You guys need to chill," Troian
"Come on Troi have a little fun," Ashely said.
"I'm alright, someone has to get you 3 back to the rooms,"
"What about you Luc?" I asked.
"one more then I'm done," she said.
"Can I get a margarita please?"
"That's my girl!" Ashley said.
The bar was closing soon, and I managed to clear my throat.
"Can I get a cosmo," I said
"Sash you haven't finished your daiquiri," Lucy said.
"Sometimes you just gotta drink," I said quoting ash.
"Hell ya," Ashley said.
As we clinked our glasses. My sobriety was gone until the next morning.
"Make it a small cosmo," troian called.
"Ya know I've never seen you drunk," Lucy said.
"Alright ladies, margarita and cosmo, last call."
"Ooh I want a.." Ashley started.
"Just the bill please," troian interrupted.
"Buzzkill," Ashley said.
"Hey I'm trying to save you from your massive hangover that you will have," troian said.
"That's tomorrow," Ashley argued.
I finished my daiquiri and gulped down my cosmo. Causing a burp.
"Here's the bill, have a good night ladies."
"Thank you,"
I started laughing hearing his accent.
"What's so funny?" Lucy asked.
"He sounds like Julian," I got out laughing harder.
"Jesus Christ," Troian said.
"Pay your bills ladies," she added.
I managed to fill it out and I had a hard time walking so Lucy helped me to the elevator.
"She got more drunk than you Ash," Lucy said.
I honestly couldn't remember what else happened, it was all a blur.
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Shay's POV
Apparently I had fallen asleep, I remembered hearing Sasha talking but I must've fallen asleep between then. When I woke up she was gone. The bedside lamp was still on and I saw a note lying next to me.
"Went to the bar downstairs with the girls, be back soon, xoxo Sash,"
I had only been asleep for an hour or so. I looked at the clock. It was 10:30.
I rolled over and looked at my phone. I heard a knock on the door. Sasha didn't take a key so it was probably her wanting in.
I opened the door to see a very drunk Sasha and Troian.
"Hey baby," Sash said, clinging to me and kissing me.
"Hi honey, mm vodka," I said tasting her breathe.
I walked her over to the bed.
"Sorry she's so drunk. She apparently called Hudson and she said she just wanted to forget him and what happened so she had a few drinks,"
"I don't blame her I guess, what did she have,"
"Strawberries," Sash said. I looked at her and laughed.
"Whiskey Sour, a shot of tequila, a strawberry daiquiri, and a cosmo,"
"Holy Hell Sash,"
"I warned her," Troian said.
"You're pretty," she slurred. I scoffed she was a cute drunk.
"Thank you for taking her up here,"
"Of course, it's the least I could do."
"Did Ash overdrink too,"
She nodded and I laughed.
"It was fun you should join us one night. I'm sure we'll be back,"
"Thanks I'll have to, Goodnight Troi, thanks again,"
"Of course, Goodnight Shay,"
I shut the door and turned to Sasha.
"What am I gonna do with you," I said.
She smiled and giggled at me as I approached her.
"Come on babe lets go to bed,"
"But I don't want to sleep,"
"What do you want then?"
"You,"
She pulled me into her and kissed my neck.
"Mmm honey you're too drunk for sex,"
"Love me baby," she crashed her lips to mine. I kissed her back a few times.
"Okay honey get in bed,"
"You're no fun," she pouted.
"Tell me about it."
I tucked her in and she got all comfy and was out the second I turned away.
I grabbed some Advil and a glass of water and placed it on the night stand, knowing she'd need it in the morning. I started my night routine and then finished with getting into my pajamas.
I kissed her forehead and got in bed with her. I'd never seen her so drunk and it made me laugh. She was gonna hurt so bad in the morning. I felt bad for her but that's just the price of drinking.
I turned the lamps off and cuddled next to her. Falling asleep under the London sky.
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Sasha's POV
Where the hell was I? I could smell coffee. It was comforting. Was I at Hudsons? Was this all just a Dream? No it couldn't be. I tried to retrace my steps. I was with the girls, drinking. But I don't remember how I got in a bed.
Who's bed was I in? I panicked and shook awake. The sun was so bright, I shut my eyes upon opening and the worst pounding in my head come over me. I groaned, I've never felt this before. Must be a hangover. I looked over and saw some pills and water and took them.
"Hey you," I heard Shay's sweet voice say.
I opened my eyes and looked for her.
"Hey,"
She leaned down to kiss me. I missed her last night. It felt like forever since I'd seen her.
"How'd you sleep?"
"Good, what about you?"
"Pretty good, want some coffee?"
"Yea please,"
She walked over to the pot and got a mug and poured me some.
"It might help with your head,"
She walked over to me and handed me the mug. I sipped and rubbed my temples.
"I'm sorry I was so hammered last night," I said a little embarrassed about what I did.
"Don't be, it was cute. did you have fun?"
"Yea it was fun. I missed you,"
"I missed you too," she said.
"I didn't do anything embarrassing did I?"
"No, although you did want sex, you were kissing on me a little bit,"
I put my head in my hands.
"Hey don't be embarrassed, you're a cute drunk,"
"Thanks," I laughed.
"Troian said we'll have to go another time this week, so I'll join you next time," she said giving me a wink.
She got up and went back to the balcony, watching the city. I set my coffee down and walked to join her.
I wrapped my arms around and hugged her from behind.
"It's so pretty here,"
I nodded in agreement. London was grey, like it was all the time but there was a certain beauty to the city.

I left my phone here last night, so I figured I'd check it. I walked over and saw some twitter and instagram notifications. Everyone was freaking out about Sashay. Then I saw my messages.

Hudson Sheaffer can we talk?
Hudson Sheaffer I know you still love me. I think you're just confused.
Hudson Sheaffer we need to talk
Hudson Sheaffer Sasha?!
Hudson Sheaffer I won't let you go
Hudson Sheaffer please call me
Hudson Sheaffer I'll prove it
3 voicemails from Hudson Sheaffer
6 missed calls from Hudson Sheaffer.

I couldn't believe him.
"Shay," I called.
"What honey?"
"Look at this."
"What the hell? What happened last night?"
"I called him and he was still kind of confused about it, he couldn't understand how I just up and left him and ran off with you,"
"And I guess he thinks he can win me back, and that I'm just confused about my feeling for you,"
"You weren't confused last night," she said.
"Exactly," I laughed.
"I figured after we talked it would be the end of it," I added.
"I'm sorry honey, I know he's still important to you. But you can't expect him to be over it,"
"I guess you're right but I'm just gonna ignore him, I can't get through to him if he's like this,"
"I'm sorry this is an issue anyway," I said.
"Don't be, all that matters is you and I,"
She smiled at me and kissed me.
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Hudson's POV 2:34 AM PST
Why wasn't she answering my texts? I had sent one every hour last night. I tried called, I left voicemails. Nothing. She can't just expect me to leave her alone.
It was 10 AM in the UK. She has to be up. Was she ignoring me? Maybe something terrible happened. Or Shay was doing something terrible with her I couldn't handle this. I wasn't going to let her steal my girl. If she won't come to me I'll go to her.