We R Who We Were NDRV3

Chapter 34: I wanted to change

Miu's POV
I don't want to be weak anymore. I want to have the strength to protect those closet to me. I want to be confident. I want to change.

I don't want to a burden! I don't want to be helpless. I don't want yo be weak! I need to change

I don't want to feel useless. I don't want to be useless. I don't want to be remembered that way. I will change!
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I finally pulled myself together. " *sniff* I'm sorry Kiyo. I shouldn't have broken down like that." I apologized.

" O-oh, no need to worry Miu... it's fine to-" he said. " No it wasn't. I shouldn't burden myself on you like that. Your nice enough to drive me and I just started screaming and crying. It wasn't right." I cut him off

He just continued to stare. " If you say so.." he said. He got back onto the road and started to drive. For 10 minutes things were silent. It wasn't awkward, just unusual. Normally Kiyo would be blasting some kind of godly song right now. I guess it's my fault.

" Miu, do you like Kokichi?" He asked. " Gasp!" I let out. Kokichi Ouma. What did he mean to me? A lot I know. He's sweet, generous, kind, handsome, everything a girl could want. I knew I liked him, hell I almost had sex with him. We just never rekindled that feeling. Or maybe I didn't.

" Yes" I told Kiyo. I finally admitted something without even stuttering. Was I becoming stronger? " Have you told him?" He asked me.

" It's kind of been implied, I'm just not sure if he knows" I told him. Kiyo nodded and looked away. " Kiyo, do you like Angie?"

The thing about Kiyo is he never overreacts. He is the only one that that stays calm in the worst moments. Like when we were kidnapped at the convention, when Tsumugi and Rantaro were in trouble, and when the veterans explained the consequence of losing in Danganronpa. This was also one of those times.

" I suppose I'm interested, but I'm not interested in love" he told me. I guess that was just Kiyo. Nothing really interested him except for his religion. You know, I always wanted to know something.

" Hey Kiyo, why did you agree to participate this season?" Kiyo never really stated why he wanted him join. To be honest, none of us really did.

" At first I signed up to spread gods message throughout the game, but the more I think about it, they'll probably change my personality to a much more twisted one. I'll probably be seen as someone thats done terrible things." He sadly told me. " But, after I leaned what there doing, I couldn't sit back and continue to let it happen. I thought, I'll let the police know and everything will be fine. But, they signed digital contracts, like us. Probably didn't read it, like us. They couldn't do something. Only I could. I'm going in there because I want to, I want to put an end to it. It's not something god told me or had to me to do, it's my choice. It's for god and for the current and possible future victims he told me. Why are you going in?" He asked me

I knew Kiyo originally wanted to go in for god related reasons but I didn't think it was for other people, let alone his own choice. Jeez, I suck. I have these opinions about my friends without really knowing the entirety of them.

" Why am I going in? Because-.....". Wait what why am I going in, what fo I have to gain. I know it's the right thing, but I could be sacrificing myself for nothing. Whats the point?

I know the original reason why the others wanted to go in.

Shuichi, Maki and Himiko: In memory of their parents and to win

Kaede: To get answers for her fathers death

Kaito: For money

Ryoma: Because of general interest

Tenko: To be with her friends

Kirumi: To protect Ryoma

Angie: To feel included

Tsumugi, Rantaro and Keebo: because they have to

Gonta: To give money to an orphanage

Kokichi: To gain attention from his Parents

What about me? Why do I want to go in. I guess originally I wanted to go in because everyone else was going. After it was to change my personality. Then it was for attention. I know now its to end Danganronpa. But is that really it?

" I guess it is to change" I told him.
" Why do you want to change?" He asked me
" I'm weak, boring, plain, useless, there's nothing good about me" I told him
" Miu, you're none of those. You're not weak. Even if it's not physical, emotionally, you're the most supportive one here. If it weren't for you, Kokichi would feel alone."

Is that true?

" Miu, you have interesting features about you, and I don't mean you're physical features. I mean that you're a relief to be around. I know you're not very talkative, but you somehow always spread positive energy" he told me

I couldn't help myself from smiling

" And if you were useless or nothing good about you, then why do we all still want you around?" He asked me

I started crying again. But these weren't tears of pain or agony. These were tears of joy.

" I guess I don't need to change!" I let out in relief

" You never needed to" he smiled at me

" Hey Kiyo, since we both like our crushes, how about we go on a double date when the game is over?" I suggested

" It's a deal" He told me

I've never felt so good about myself before. After 15 minutes we arrived at the building.

When we stepped out I hugged Kiyo really hard and he hugged me back.

Im fine with myself now.

End

Author: Alright Alright, I'm sorry about these informational chapters. Next chapter will be a more dialogued and plot related chapter.

Thanks for reading!