numb.

keisha: kinda cute

           I explained everything to them, for a few moments they just sat there in shock, but then it kicked in and they cried, I cried too. Stacey was the first one to speak.

          "We have to do something! We can't let that asshole walk around campus, what if he does that shit to someone else?" I sighed and shook my head.

          "You know it won't work, whatever he does will never be put into questions, if he tells his dad he didn't do it, his dad will tell the staff, and if the staff doesn't listen to his dad, his dad will pull his donations, him and his dad have had their dicks up this staff's ass since his freshman year, shit hasn't changed." Veronica wiped her eyes as she spoke.

           "Well, we have to do something!" I looked down at my lap and shook my head.

           "What can we do? Who would listen? You know Kevin is the golden child, whatever he says they'll just eat it up...I can't believe I liked him." I buried my face in my hands and I began to shake. Stacey rubbed my back as Veronica stood up, pacing back and forth. She paused and looked at me. 

            "You sure it wasn't Ezra?" She asked. At first, I thought Ezra was lying to me, but then it added up, the change of clothes, the fact that I was here and not in Kevin's dorm, why would he rape me and then nurse me back to health? 

            "No it wasn't him, I'm sure of it." Veronica frowned.

            "You sure? He's always watching you, bumped into us at the party, didn't you mention him grabbing your arm or something? You sure he doesn't have some sick obsession with you?" Ezra was many things, creepy? maybe a bit, but a rapist? hell no.

             "It wasn't him Veronica, I can guarantee it." She nodded and sat down, Ezra's bedroom door opened and we all looked at the doorway, Ezra was standing there looking pretty awkward.

            "Um...sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt," he went over to his mini-fridge, "just getting something. I smiled softly at him. Only Ezra could manage to apologize for walking into his bedroom unannounced. He rummaged through it for a few moments before pulling out a six-pack of that stupid energy drink, I think it was called a demon, or monster, or something. I scrunched my nose up.

             "Ewwww, you drink those?" I asked, he looked down at the six-pack and nodded.

              "Yeah, it's Saturday...on Saturday we stay up all night and play 2k," he held up the six-pack, "this helps me stay up." I smiled shaking my head.

              "Don't stay up too long, we got a project to start, remember?" He nodded biting his lip as he stared at me, I stared back and noticed something about him I never paid any attention to.

              He has very big eyes.

              It's something that I find very cute, I'm surprised I never noticed, our staring contest was interrupted by Veronica who cleared her throat. Ezra looked at her and then me.

               "Ummmm, I'll leave you three to it then," He walked towards the door and opened it, "Hey! I'm the first, bitch! put my controller down." He closed the door and I looked at the girls. Stacey was smirking for some reason.

                "What?" I asked she laughed at me.

                "Oh my god, it all makes sense now, he likes you." I raised an eyebrow and she laughed again, "it's way too obvious, staring all the time, for fuck's sake, the way he just looked at you gave me chills." I rolled my eyes taking it all in. A part of me denied it. Ezra? No fucking way, the chances of him liking me were slim to none, and I damn sure didn't have a thing for him. Then there was the other part that thought it was true, even if it was just a bit. Going to school with Ezra over the years, he'd done a lot of things indirectly that helped me. Whether it was something small such as giving me a pencil or something much bigger, like helping me last night.  

              "No, it's not possible," I said while looking at them both, "plus that's the least of our worries, we should be...Veronica, what are you doing?" She was by Ezra's dresser and was holding something she tossed it to me and my jaw dropped.

              "Looks like lover boy has a huge dick." It was a box of condoms, XXL condoms, for some reason I felt myself blush.

              "How about we don't go through his private belongings and we-" I was cut off as Ezra came back in the room, we all looked at him and he sighed.

              "Sorry, I came in to get something," he walked over to his dresser and frowned, "that's weird, my condoms were right here," Stacey smirked.

              "Oh, Keisha has them, we were just wondering how big your penis is." He raised an eyebrow at Stacey.

               "Oh...um...okay," he walked over to the bed grabbing the box, "thank you." He took out two condoms and sat the box down beside me. "Have fun I guess." He walked back out and closed the door. Stacey laughed and I shook my head.

               "You are such a weirdo."

                                                                                          ***

              Stacey and Veronica stayed a bit longer before going back to their dorms, when Ezra came back to his room I was sitting on his bed looking through a notebook of his, his eyes widened and he snatched it from me.

               "Please, never go through this book, it's a secret." I smiled softly at him, the book was filled with poems and short stories that he'd written, it was beautiful.

               "Why not? you're very good at that stuff." He sat his book on his desk and shrugged.

               "I'm not there yet, in terms of perfecting my craft," he walked out and returned a few minutes later with his XBOX, "plus, it's meant for MY eyes only, not Keisha McCalister's." He smirked at me as he set up his XBOX to his tv. I watched him closely and sighed.

               "Ezra...thank you...for like the one-thousandth time, it just...it means so much that you helped me." He paused at the tv and then nodded.

               "Just did the right thing, I ain't no hero or nothing." He handed me the XBOX controller after he turned it on, "I got HULU, Netflix, that Amazon shit, you can watch whatever." He grabbed a duffel bag and began to put some clothes in it, "I got a shit ton of laundry to do." He took off his shirt and stuffed it in the bag, I bit my lip watching his muscles flex as he grabbed the bag hoisting it over his shoulder's. "I'll be back in a few." I watched him walk out then turned to the tv, turning on Rick and Morty.