My Pain

Long Distance

Lil Eazy -E POV

My dad and the rest of NWA were blowing up the hip hop charts nonstop in 1988. Daddy's solo album Eazy Duz It was blowing up quickly. It was super dope. I had turned 4 and was going to school. Erica was going on to 3 years so she can't go to school now. My 4th birthday party was so fun. Daddy took me, Erica, and Derrick to Disneyland. I remember it was my first day of school. I was so nervous I couldn't even drink anything without wasting it.🤣🤣🤣🤣 My daddy saw I was nervous so he started making funny faces at me then started to tickle me. He tickled me so hard that I was crying laughing and almost peed on myself. My grandparents and my mama started taking pictures and daddy took me to school. He held my hand through every step of the way. He bent down on his knees because I was so short. He told me that everything is going to be good and make new friends. He gave me a kiss on my cheek and lips, then he said he loved me then went back home. I loved my first day at Monesart Children 's Academy. (. By the way it is a private school).

My daddy told me that since there group and music is blowing up because of Straight Outta Compton they have to go on tour. I was so super sad. I tried to fake smile and play but I was so hurt. I didn't want my daddy to leave me. So I saw him packing up clothes. I came in and started to mess up his clothes and throwed it on the floor. He told me to stop a lot of times but I didn't listen. My daddy yelled " ERIC JR GET YO ASS OUT THIS GODDAMN ROOM! GET THA HELL OUT! I saw the shock and look of his face when he regretted that he yelled at me like that. I ran into my room buried my face in my pillow and cried my little heart-out.My daddy hurt my feelings that day😭🤣 I then see my dad crawled  unto me and he cuddle me so tight. That made me cry more and more. I felt him start to rub my back and whispered in my ear, "I'm so sorry I yelled at you, I love you baby ". He planted soft , sweet, tender wet kisses on my face.  I felt so loved and comforted that I started to forget that my feelings were even hurt. Once I calmed down, he explained why he was going away. I didn't understand anything about touring and performing at 4. He also told me he promised to not yell at me like that and next time you should listen to your parents. It was kinda my fault he yelled at me, I mean I didn't listen to him when he told me to stop. I disobeyed him. One thing I can tell you is that my dad is a calm, laidback , down to earth kind a person. He has a lot of patience. But when it comes to disrespect and somebody messing with his family, especially his kids he will get mad and CRAZY. Now if we disrespect him, he will get really disappointed/ angry and we don't get whoopings. Nope my dad didn't believe in whoopings. Him fussing at us and taking away privileges is a whooping all by itself 😂😂😂. I'm glad he disciplined us because he doesn't want us to end up dead or in jail. He wants us to be somebody in life/ be successful. That's why he was hustling so hard so we can get out the hood. My true rider forever and always.