My Pain

True Daddy's Girl

Lil Eazy E POV

So things were going well in 1994. I turned 10 years old and Erica was turning 9 later on in the year. My brother Derrick turned 6 years old and my sister Erin turned 4 years old. My other sister Kida was also 6 years old.. Everybody was getting older. I was almost in middle school. I was pretty upset with my drastic changes when I turned 10 . I always thought I was ugly. Even though my grandparents or my mama said I wasn't, I always believed it .... well not now. Erica was kinda going through the same thing. It's like we go through things together you know. I was playing football at my school. I forgot to mention I started playing football at age 5. So , I had always dreamed of playing in the NFL and the Super Bowl. I was literally the best player on my team. I was also the best runner and tackler of my team. My coach had told me that he is going to make me play Quaterback. I was happy because I always wanted that position. My dad was very supportive. My dad is a strong person. His upper body strength is amazing. He can flip off of shit and do a standing backflip on the ground. I seen it happened, it just amazed me.🤣😂🤣 Seeing a 27 or 30 year old man backflip on the ground while most people his age have trouble bending down😂😂😂 My dad was also the fastest runner. My nigga used to run away from the po po like his life depended on it. If you don't believe me , watch the video to 100 miles and Runnin🤣🤣🤣. I ran track but stop because i wanted to focus on football. It was my passion. My sister Erica used to run track. She was one of the best track runners in the whole state of California. She was a long distance runner and used to get 1st place in the 400 meter and the 800 meter which is the hardest race to run because you are running 3 laps around a big race track. My dad was also a skater. He was so good at riding a skateboard. I remembered he tried to teach me and I ran into a trash can and fell on my ass🤣🤣🤣🤣 He was laughing at me and said " Don't stress about it man, I did the exact same shit when I was first learning" 😂😂😂 " You will get it". So anyways, my dad's record company was blowing up. My dad was literally making 50 million dollars. That's enough money to buy 6 big ass mansions🤣🤣🤣 but my dad was starting to cough a lot . But it wasn't bad. He looked normal to me,nothing like hiv/aids. This is one day I will never ever forget. So me , my dad , and my sister Kida were in the living room. My sister was at dance . My sister took dance lessons. She has been on broadway and major parts. But that same day , Erica came home crying her eyes out. She ran into her room and cried her heart out. My dad was in the back of the house so he didn't hear Erica. I came in the room and just hugged her tightly and kissed her forehead. She was crying on my shoulder. I asked her what's wrong, and she said ," I'm tired of going to a place where I dance, and what I called home , to deal with racist people who do everything in their power to sabotage my opportunity 's. I'M TIRED ERIC, SO TIRED!!!" She was so hurt and fed up. Erica is not the type to cry so easily, but she will cry if she is overly mad or hurt. Then she told me," I want my daddy". When Erica said that, it reminds me of when she was very little and use to cry for our daddy and he would always come. Now as I am a grown man, it gets me a little emotional, because it brings back the whole point of him being a amazing father he was and how much he loved us. I never seen a man love his kids the way he does. He would always smile when he sees us. That shows how much joy we bring in his life. So I came and got my daddy and told him what was happening. He rushed in and he told me to let him talk to her alone but you know I'm nosy so I heard every word they say.🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 Also they left the door a little bit cracked so I saw them. My dad said " What's wrong babygirl? You know you can tell daddy anything." Erica told him what's wrong. " Daddy , I have been dancing at that studio ever since I was three. I have work my butt off everyday , to get to where my dream is . I am the only black girl at that studio. My peers have always made fun of my skin color talking about it's ugly and how my hair is ugly because it's black and not blonde. Usually I confront them and don't let it bother me. I was the only one who made it to broadway and done major dances for different celebrities. When I went to the studio today because we had auditions the week before to see who is going to open up for Micheal Jackson and be a backup dancer for Janet Jackson for her year and a half long tour. I was coming to dance class and my teacher said that she was going to tell us the results today on yesterday. So I came in the dressing room, all the girls came around me and just started laughing at me. I didn't know why but I just ignored it. Then all the girls came up in my face and said that I had gotten the job to go on tour with Janet and open up for Micheal. I was so happy,but then they said that we told the people that you are moving and you rejected the part. I started fighting all of them and the teacher had to pull us all apart. I told my teacher what happened and she said that she was apart of the whole plan. I just grabbed my stuff and ran here. I felt so betrayed because she was to only person I trusted in the studio and she would take my opportunity that I always dream away from me. Daddy my heart is broken. I have worked so hard to fulfill my dream and it gets taken away by a bunch of jealous , mean , cruel people. I just want to give up." Erica started sobbing uncontrollably. I was so mad. I wanted to go beat the shit out of them girls and my teacher. They messed with the wrong one. If you hurt my sister, you hurt me. Then my daddy said, " Shhhh..... Babygirl don't cry. Everything is gonna be okay. I understand how you feel. I had so many people that betrayed me and stabbed me in my back. But you know what , I never stop working. I am doing this for myself , but most importantly for you and your brothers and sisters . I don't want you living in the hood because it's dangerous. I want you to get out the hood and make something out yourself. I want you to live a stable life. I don't ever want you to give up. Don't give up on yourself. You will get to your goal , it just takes time. You have to be patient Erica. It's gonna come. Just continue working hard and be the most amazing, beautiful, smart person you are. Don't let nobody comments about your skin get to you. Your skin is beautiful. Being black is a blessing that no white person will ever understand. You are a strong black princess that will later on will be a strong black queen. You are beautiful. Just have faith and ask God to give you strength. Faith overcomes fear. But most importantly, I want you to know that you can always trust me. I will always be here for you whenever you need me. I love you baby." Erica said " I love you to daddy. You are the best daddy in the whole wide world." My dad hugged Erica tightly and gave her a soft kiss on the cheek. My ass came up in there saying " Awww😂😂😂" . My daddy then said, " Eric why are you damn nosy? Like damn. But i love ya though😂😂💙" " Love ya too dad.