My Pain

I am always by your side

Lil Eazy E POV

Okayyyyy! We fast forward to 1991. My dad got his ex- girlfriend Tracy pregnant and she had my little sister Erin Bria Wright on July 16, 1990. We call her E. B. Tracy is my favorite baby mama😂😂😂😂 Her and my dad stay arguing and their arguments were funny🤣🤣🤣 Well 1991 has came and I was 7 years old and Erica was 5 years old almost 6. She started school in 1989. 1991 was a bittersweet year for my dad. So Cube left the group in 1989  because of a disagreement over money which was between my dad and Jerry which was NWA's manager. Cube felt like his money was being stolen from him because he wrote most of NWA's music and my dad's Eazy Duz It Album. My dad was upset about Cube leaving but he had to stay on his grind and move forward. Then NWA launched a new album called NiggazforLife. Their one song, 100 Miles and Runnin had a line " Their's only 4 cause the 5th couldn't make it". That song set Ice Cube off so bad he made one of the greatest diss tracks ever;" No Vaseline". Ice Cube roasted the hell of out NWA😂😂😂 especially my dad🤣🤣🤣🤣. The worst thing about it is when I first listen to it, me and my dad were sitting in the car, he took me to get something to eat after school.So, I turned the radio on and No Vaseline was playing so loud in the speakers on the part where Cube was talking about my daddy and I was literally laughing my ass off while looking my dad in the face🤣🤣🤣🤣 He gave that death stare but i didn't give a fuck I was still laughing 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 He didn't say nothing on our way to his house in the Calabassas. I got out the car and he started chasing me with me still laughing. I got into the house and ran into his room hiding under the covers. He came and jumped on top of me and started to tickle me. I mean I almost peed because my most sensitive spot to be tickled is my side almost to my armpit. He was tickling my spot over and over. After he was done, we started play wrestling like we always done😅😅😅 Then we cuddled in each other's arms and fell asleep. I stayed their overnight. I wished I could stay with my dad permanently but dad said it would be too complicated. But my daddy never was too busy for me,and my brothers and sisters.He was always there for us when we needed him. He was there for every holiday, every birthday. He was a father figure in my life. I remember my uncle Kenneth took my to Inglewood for my daddy's concert and I was standing right next to Janet Jackson but didn't even noticed.My uncle eventually told on me and my dad was joking and mentioning the whole story the rest of the night. That night was great.

Things kinda went downhill for NWA. Dre left NWA to go work with Suge Knight over at Death Row Records. Dre left for the same reasons a Cube did..... disagreement over money. My dad was so hurt when he left. His closest friend left him and betrayed him over petty stuff that they could have sit down and have a man to man conversation and work out their differences. My dad felt like he helped so many people and some of them stabbed him in the back. My dad always had a big heart. He likes to help other people, especially children. My dad loves children. My dad was so gentle and soft spoken with me, my brothers and sisters including children that are not his. My dad came and picked me up from my grandparents house so I can spend the night. I know when my dad is sad or upset like he knows when I'm not happy. It's like viceversa. I asked my dad what's wrong in the car and he said nothing. I knew he was lying. So when we got to his house I sat on his couch and watched tv. My dad sat beside me and he was quiet the whole time. Now my dad may be kinda quiet on camera but around me and the rest of the family, he can talk all day everyday. He talked so damn much🤣🤣🤣 Then I saw that he was hanging his head down. I felt so bad, I was finna cry. I never liked seeing my family members sad . I have a very sensitive heart that I always have to protect. I don't play when people play with my heart. I got up and wrap my arms around his neck and gave him a very nice warm, tight hug. He wrapped his arms around me and rubbed my back. Then he placed a soft kiss on my forehead and said he loved me so much. I told him I loved him back. I just sat on his lap and listened to him talk.He told me what happened between him and Dre. I was kinda mad at Dre because he hurt my daddy's feelings. One thing I can tell you is that I don't play about my daddy. He means everything to me. I will literally hurt somebody or lay down my life for my daddy. He meant everything to me. He was my bestfriend in the whole wide world. He was my true ride or die. I told him these exact words; " Daddy I know for a fact that when you become successful, life is going to punk you. Life is going to challenge you to make sure you really want to be successful. People are going to walk out your life because they don't want to deal with you anymore because they are jealous or unsupportive. But you have to keep going and keep Ruthless alive. You have to know what's best for you. You can't stop because of what other people think. You have to keep your grind on and work a thousand times harder. When all that work pays off , you will be so happy and full of joy. You don't need Dre, you are Eazy E. You have a gift, an unique voice that no one will ever had. You are a voice to all these people who can't speak on their own. You are a great businessman with a big heart. Grandma always told me that when you do good things to people, good things will come back to you. But always remember, no matter what, I will always be by your side. I will never leave you because you never left me. I am so grateful that I have you in my life. You are the best person but most importantly the best daddy in the whole wide world and beyond. Please don't let this discourage you. I love you more than anything." My daddy had the biggest smile on his face, which made me so happy. This is what he told me; " Eric, you are the most sweetest, caring kid in the whole wide world . You are very intelligent for your age. I always called you my first blessing because without you, I don't know where will i be . You just motivated me to keep my grind. I will always love you for that. You are the greatest son I ever had. I love you so much baby". He gave me a hug and kissed my check. We got into his bed and talked for hours before we went to sleep. Okay so let's fast forward a little to April 23rd which was my 7 th birthday. When I got to school everybody was telling me Happy Birthday . My dad came to my grandparents house and blew a birthday buzzer and some confetti in my face🤪🤪🤪 He screamed Happy Birthday so loud 😅😅😅 His voice went 3 octaves higher🤣🤣🤣🤣 So anyways when I got home , their were balloons everywhere and their was a birthday cake. I was so happy because everything was blue💙😂 my favorite color is blue. So my aunties, my uncle, my cousins, my sister,and my brothers on both my mama and daddy side was all there. Some people thought since I don't live with my mama ,that i'm not close with her. Not True🤣🤣🤣🤣 I love her so much, she is the best mommy in the world. I always stayed in touch with her. Her and my dad were still very close even things didn't work out for them. My dad still loved her. My mom still loved him. My grandparents from my Mama side came over. My brother Twone also came. We was very close to. Me and Twone used to mess with our grandma all the time. She be cussing us out😂😂🤣😂but I loved her. After the little get together we had, me and my daddy were chilling on the couch just talking. Then my dad got a call from Suge that he needed to see him at the studio. My daddy was a little bit pissed off because it was my birthday and he wanted his full attention on me. I told him it's okay and take care of your business. He gave me a kiss and left. Dre set my dad up. He tried to make my dad release him from ruthless by using
Suge. Suge threatened my grandma and me, including the rest of my brothers and sisters. My dad decided to put a fake signature (Mickey Mouse🤣🤣🤣) to be done with the both of them. My dad was not scared of Dre or Suge. They tried to pull guns on him but he knew they wouldn't touch him. If they touch him, they would be in big trouble or worse. My dad was a Kelly Park Compton Crip💙💙💙 He had so many connections and people who were down for him. He had so many people who had his back. My dad came home around 12'O clock. I was sleep. He came in my room and laid in the bed with me. He was laughing and he had a little bit of anger and killing in his eyes. Later on in my life he told me that story.