One day at a time | Sarah Paulson

Chapter 18

There she stood, directly in the door and with tears in her eyes. I stood up and walked fast to her. I held her head in my hands and asked “What's wrong? Please don't cry.” I wiped her tears away and waited for her to respond. I searched her eyes for some reaction, but she just stood there with tears streaming down her face.

“Hey talk to me, please” I pleaded and kissed her lips. “Who was that?” she whispered. “Who?” I asked confused. “That woman! I heard what you said.” “That was no one” I said. “Yeah sure. That's why you told her you miss her and love her” Sarah shouted and walked away from me. “Wait. Sarah!” I ran after her and at my front door I grabbed her hand. “Wait please. She is my former teacher and mentor. She's like a second mother to me.”

She didn't replied, just looked at me. “Do you really think, I would be with someone else, when I can have you? Sarah you're the only one for me. You're the only woman I will ever want. Please don't think I would ever refuse you. I don't know what I'm feeling right now, but I will never, never leave you.” Now tears started to run down my face and I held Sarah's head in my hands, so she couldn't turn away from me.

We looked each other in the eyes and just stared. The tension grew between us and I couldn't take it anymore. I slowly leaned in and started to kiss her. First her cheeks, than her nose, her forehead and lastly her lips. I pushed her against the door and she moaned. “Please say something” I whispered against her lips. “I love you” she whispered. I drew back, but Sarah grabbed my waist and held me in place.

She looked me in the eyes and said seriously “You don't have to say it back, I know that it's confusing for you and you're new to this, but I know what I'm feeling. I love you I really do and I got mad when I heard you saying those things to that woman. And I want to know, if we ever gonna make it official if you're okay with the publicity that will come to you.” I could only nod. “Good, because I will definitely show you someday the world and how much I love you. We will get shit storm because of the age gap, but I don't care anymore. I'm through this with Holland, but I'm worried about you.”

I took a deep breath and answered. “It's okay. We will make it official someday, but before that I like to make sure that no one is against it. I need my family to stand behind me. But I'm looking forward to the day we can go out in public.” “And I can't wait for the moment, when I can finally kiss you in public” Sarah whispered and kissed me passionately. “Me neither” I whispered back. “Are you still going to leave or are you staying?” I asked and rubbed her back.