One day at a time | Sarah Paulson

Chapter 60

At her house I got out of her car, as fast as I could and run inside. Sarah run after me and inside she grabbed my hand. “Why can't you just leave me alone” I cried out and fell to the floor. Sobbing. Sarah sat down with me and pulled me against her body. My head rested on her chest and I felt so weak. My arms sneaked around her body and she hugged me even more to her.

“Because you're my fucking girlfriend. You're my everything.” Sarah was crying too. We both cried a little longer. “Are you feeling warm now?” she whispered. “A little bit, yes.” I told her, my voice barely more than a whisper. “Come on, I'll make you a bath.” I only nodded and she pulled me up, but my legs gave out under me. Sarah steadied me and walked me to her bathroom.

I sat on the edge of the tub and Sarah undressed me. I was so fucking tired, that I couldn't even complain. Sarah pushed my pants down and took the Hoodie and shirt off and gasped. “Sweetheart you're whole body is blue. I think you're undercooled.  We need to get your body temperature up again.” I felt dizzy and could barely hear her. Sarah guided me in a standing position and took my underwear off.

In the meantime she had turned on the water and the tub were full now. She helped me in and I closed my eyes. The warmth felt really good. “Is it okay, if I'm staying with you?” Sarah asked quietly. “It's okay.” After some minutes, I tried to wash my body but I was too weak. I sighed and looked at Sarah. She was lost in her thoughts. “Sarah?” I asked quietly. Snapping out of her thoughts, she turned her head to me. “Yes?”

“Could you help me, I'm too weak” I sobbed. She nodded and got on her knees next to the tub. She washed my body and helped me out of the tub afterwards. She helped me in fresh underwear and grabbed a shirt for me. Walking to the bedroom, she laid me down and settled in next to me. I rolled over and snuggled into her arms. “I'm sorry" I whispered against her neck. “Not yet. You need sleep. We will talk tomorrow sweetheart.” Sarah kissed my head and I didn't need much to fell asleep.

The next morning I woke up, because pain shot through my body and I had a stuffy nose. I suppressed a scream with my pillow and tried to remember what happened the last day. The memories shot back in my mind and I felt miserable. Not only because I was in pain, but because of Sarah. She must hate me. I sobbed and rolled on my stomach. Pain shoot through my body again and I sobbed even harder.

I heard a screech and the bed shifted. It was Sarah. She sat down next to me and stroked my hair. “What's wrong babe?” I turned slowly around and looked up at her. Her eyes were full of sadness, but she held her hand on my cheek. “I'm in pain, but that doesn't matter, I made you worry. I turned my phone off and ignored you. But I was so angry with you. I'm so sorry Sarah, I really am. But I really don't like Lily and can't get over the fact that you had to shoot a sex scene with her.
I'm a terrible girlfriend” I cried really hard and turned away from her.

Laying down again I hugged myself and rolled on my side. It was all to much.
Sarah laid behind me and pressed her front to my back. She let me cry.