emma -
i'm never good enough. i never was and never will be. ethan was the one that truly made me realize that.
"honey want a coffee? i'm going to philz" i looked over at my mom who was now standing at the doorway.
"i'm okay"
she tilted her head and gave that "mom face" and came to sit next to me.
"it'll get better honey. i promise you."
i didn't tell her what happened. although she just knew
i layed my head on her shoulder and cried lightly.
"he's sorry you know." she said rubbing my head.
"how would you know"
"he texted me. late at night."
flashback
ethan -
i stayed up all night. thinking. then i remembered how sophia told me at one point that i would be able to call or text her whenever i needed.
i looked over at the time
11:30 pm
it was late, but i needed to get some help
ethan: hi sophia, i'm sorry to bother you at this time but i just needed some help
sophia: hi ethan!
i told her everything. i told her how sorry i was and how i really didn't know why i did it. she was so supportive. i never knew what that was like.
end of flashback
"how late?" i asked
"uhm, maybe 11 or so."
i sat there. sorry for him. sorry for everything.
ethan -
"bro stop."
i paced around the room once again with grayson on the couch.
"ethan nothing's gonna happen if you just don't send the text."
"i'm not ready!"
"ethan. stop. you're being selfish. it's not about you it's about emma."
i felt so sorry. of course i did. she's my best friend. but there was something in the back of my mind wanting more than that.
