emma -
i sat in my room. waiting for a text. from anyone to be honest. its been three days since everything happened. its spring break. i just wanted comfort. i felt like no one was here for me when i truly needed.
ding
i rushed to my phone. it was ethan
ethan: emma, i know you're mad at me. theres nothing i can do to make you forgive me or believe me that im really sorry and truly care about you. when i tried to kiss you, i shouldn't have. i shouldn't have done that. you're my best friend and nothing changes that. i love you. i really do. but can we please just talk in person?
i didn't know what to say. a part of me wanted to respond right away. but another part of me wanted to show him that i didn't need him. that i wasn't always just gonna be right by his side. but i remembered. his my best friend. i have to be there.
emma: hey. thanks. i get it, you didn't know what to do and i get you like kayla a lot so i should've been more understanding about you wanting to stay and talk with her. dont worry about it.
he responded almost instantly
ethan: emma i care about you so much. and honestly, i dont know why i like kayla. you're so much better and i know you way more than i could ever know her. and i dont want to know her. i have you. i want to be with you. not her.
flashback
"emma you're so much better than all the other girls, please dont let this get to you." ethan whispered to me while i cried in his arms. i was crying over the fact i felt so unwanted. ethans the only one that truly knows how much i struggle with people and how much i feel unwanted at times.
he held my head in his chest and let my cry there. for hours.
end of flashback
he once was able to make me believe that i was actually wanted. but not this time.
i didn't respond. i decided to drive to his house. to talk to him in person.
i knocked on his door, and waited for a few moments until kayla opened the door. i stood there.
"kayla who is it?" i heard a voice from afar. ethans voice.
i looked down. she was in his shirt that i always used to wear. her hair was messy.
my eyes started to fill with tears. ethan came to the door blank stare.
"emma- i-"
i walked away. grabbing the keys viciously out of my pocket. i wiped my tears away and got to my car.
"emma wait"
"WHAT ethan. what could you possibly want"
i looked back at kayla standing at the doorstep. her hair perfectly falling into place even after sex. the way she stood there was even perfect. of course he'd choose her. even after begging me to be with him. forgive him.
"and graysons ex girlfriend?" i said in a whisper voice.
he looked back at her as if she was gonna help him from what he had caused.
"just go with her." i said firmly. i opened my car door and drove off.
