emma -
liking your best friend.. it's just something that can never happen. at least for me. i'm always that girl that likes someone and never gets him. maybe that's better. maybe it's the thrill of liking someone and being so close yet so far to getting them.
one week. one whole week. no text no call no nothing from ethan. i hadn't gone back to school. i missed a few days. i wasn't depressed, just sad. when one thing makes you sad, everything else good in your life seems to be bad.
i heard a ring from my phone. a phone call. i got up so fast thinking it could be ethan even though i knew i didn't want to talk to him. but deep down i did.
no caller id
"hello?" i said with a raspy voice
"hey it's kayla, i knew you wouldn't answer if i called so i did it anonymously"
i slightly rolled my eyes even if i was somewhat happy at least someone reached out to me.
i looked at my clock
3:35 pm
school has already gotten out. i sat there for a little.
"so why'd you call" i said with attitude not meaning for it to come out that way.
"well, uh- i know i'm probably the last person you'd wanna hear from but, i hope you're doing okay and i just wanted to say, ethan loves you he really does."
i sighed at the sound of that. the amount of times i've heard that.
"i have to go, thanks for the call" i don't know if i meant that sarcasticly or if i really meant that.
i hung up the phone and layed in bed not to long after to hear the doorbell ring. i looked at the time. it was my mom. she just got off work.
i stumbled out of bed with messy hair and pajamas. i opened the door to see ethan. my eyes opened wide and i felt embarrased he saw me this way. even though he's seen me way worse, it's just somehow different now.
"what are you doing here ethan." i avoided eye contact. seeing his hazel eyes would make me fall all over again.
he glanced inside to see if my mom was sitting at the dining table as she usually is.
"are you free right now?" he asked
i finally looked him in the eyes. my stomach did a little loop. i immediately looked away. i couldn't fall for him again, more so even harder than i already have.
"i cant ethan" i said with a whisper. i was about to close the door as he took my hand gently while he pulled me towards him and put his arm behind my back to pull me closer. i stumbled to the steps. my chest was on his and i looked up at him from the height difference.
"just this once" he said.
