MISSING YOU; Bradley Simpson

10.

EVELYN

"I have to tell you something," Brad suddenly breaks away from our kiss.

"What is it?" I furrow my eyebrows, looking at him expectantly.

"Just... promise me you won't get mad," he sighs.

"If you say it like this I can't promise anything," I half-joke.

Brad takes a deep breath and looks over at me with sad eyes. My heartbeat fastens a million times, already afraid of what he is going to say. He slowly takes my hand in his and looks deeply into my eyes.

"I... I'm so sorry baby. I promise it didn't mean anything to me," he starts and I already know where this is going. I feel the tears welling up in my eyes as I slowly take my hands out of Brad's grip. "I cheated on you," he blurts out, his eyes tearing up as well.

I jump to my feet, taking a few steps away. I knew this was going to happen, but I didn't want to admit it to myself or anyone, for that matter. I tried to have as much faith in this man as possible, but it's all gone now, that he admitted this. I feel like I can't breath. This is bad. I'm gonna have a panic attack. I slowly sit down on the couch and try to take a few deep breaths, but I can't. I start breathing heavily, like I'm suffocating and the world around me starts spinning.

"Eve? Eve, are you okay?" Brad hurries over to me. I motion for him towards the sink in the small kitchen of the hotel room. He quickly jumps up and pours me a glass of water. I start drinking everything that is in the glass, my breath becoming steadier.

"Get out," I say, not looking at Brad.

"Don't do this. Please, baby. We can work this out," he tries to grab my hands, but I pull away.

"I said get... out!" I shout this time.

Brad finally stands to his feet and with a small, disappointed nod, he leaves my hotel room. I really thought this time we're going to make it and end up together. It seemed like it, but I guess nothing is forever, right? I don't know how I believed that this man changed. He sure acted like it, but now I know it was just a lie.

Now my only problem is, I'm going to a ski trip with him and the others when I leave this book promo tour. How am I gonna tell the others I won't go? I can't just lie and tell them something came up, because knowing Maggie and Kirstie, they'll start questioning me and I eventually have to tell them the truth. At least Lucy is never pushing anyone to tell her something.

I stand up from the couch, feeling the tears roll down my cheeks as I make my way to the bed. I don't bother wiping them away, I just sit down and pull my laptop out of its bag and start watching a movie. Hopefully that will take my mind off of this.

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Two hours later, I'm a sobbing mess as I shut down my laptop and burry my face in the pillows. This movie didn't help at all. Hell, it made me feel even worse. Watching as the couple in the movie goes through everything, watching them be stronger and happier together even after the most horrible tragedies happening in their relationship, knowing I won't ever have that with Brad. Him and I aren't meant to be. Now I realize that he can never change for me, or for anyone. He's the same boy as he was when we first met, that jerk who played with every girl's emotions, only caring about his. All that matters to him is to have fun, no matter who he's going to hurt by that.