I've got this friend ~ //Luke Hemmings//

Chapter 8 - //The Brutal Truth//

I walked through the door and into the house. My dad was in the kitchen with a bottle of beer as always. I walked into the kitchen and stood there, just staring at him. He looked up from his can of beer. he looked me dead in the eye, and for a second I could swear that I actually saw a hint of regret and sadness... But that was short lived and disappeared.

"What do you want?" He sighed, acting like he wanted nothing to do with me. I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair.

"Why?" I asked, staring him in the eyes with a determined look.

He looked at me and shrugged. After everything that had happened, he shrugged. The only fucking answer I got was a shrug. You've got to be kidding me. I walked right up to him, and knocked the beer straight out of his hands. He looked shocked and mad, but he didn't move. I was getting madder by the second.

"You know what "Dad"?" I started, pointing at him accusingly. "I've had enough of your bullshit okay? I'm done with you. You abuse your daughter and all you can do is shrug? Do you even remember why you moved us in the first place?! I'm done. I'm Leaving" I started to walk away, but then he spoke up.

"I'm Sorry. I've been going through some... stuff" He looked down. 

"You've been going through stuff? What about me? And have you even checked up on Jake lately? Because he's going through stuff too. Alot more "Stuff" Than me" I walked out of the door, slamming it, into the freezing cold air.

I slumped against the gate and started to cry. What was I doing? I was making it worse. Where was i supposed to go now. I didn't want to stay, but I didn't want to go. I just ended walking to the end of the street and going to the park. I sat on the swing and put my head in my hands. It was getting slightly dark. I sighed. I didn't know where to go and all I had with me were my clothes. I heard a car come down the street and I put my head back in my hands. The car pulled up to the park and I looked up. Luke hopped out. Great. Just in time. Just like always. I was definitely over sarcastic then. 

"Alyssa whats wrong?" He jogged towards me with concern in his face. The other boys started to get out of the car.

"I have to go somewhere. And I don't know where that somewhere is, it just has to be anywhere away from home. From here" His face was washed over with sadness. The others stayed standing by the car, but I knew that they could hear.

"Alyssa please, please don't leave... You don't know how much I need you" Luke stammered.

"I'm sorry Luke I would stay if I could but its not entirely my choice. I just can't stay here" I sighed.

"You can stay with me! Please Alyssa... I love you" A stray tear rolled down his perfect face.

"It's just not that simple Luke. It's time for me to go" I said and turned away. Tears forming in my eyes.

"Then where does that leave Us?" He said.

"For now, I think it would be better" My voice cracked and the tears started to roll down my face. "I- I think... I need to spend some time alone.. To get my life back together. And I guess when I have, We'll see where we go from there.." I said, Tears everywhere.

"So your breaking up with me?" He said, and I could hear him crying. I turned around to face him. He saw my tears and a pained look crossed his face.

"For now Luke, Yes" I walked away as they all watched. I started to jog before going into a sprint so I was out of sight.

I didn't know what I had done, but I knew it would be better if we spent some time apart. I just needed time to think. About everything. My phone buzzed and I saw that Luke had texted me. I ignored it before looking through my contacts. I tried to find someone, ANYONE, that I could stay with. Anything was better than spending the night on the street or forking out cash for a motel. But seeing as we decided not to tell anyone about our move, I had no one. I ended up walking to a motel, deciding that it couldn't be that bad. I walked into the reception.

"Single one night room please" I said confidently, handing him the money. The man chuckled.

"Aren't you a little young?" He had a massive grin on.

"hey, its your income isn't it? I could go somewhere else" He sighed and handed me the keys.

When i walked into my room I looked around. It was plain and really simple. There was a bed, a window, and a door leading to the bathroom. I sighed and collapsed on the bed. What was I doing?

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I woke up the next morning feeling like crap, but I got up anyway. I got up and left the room, handing in the keys. I needed to figure out what I was doing and where I was going. I was going to need new clothes and things, but I had more than enough money for that. I thought about where I could go. I had always heard that Tasmania was nice. I decided to head there, since It was decently far away. I looked up the bus and train schedule, and planned my journey. Not before going shopping for what I needed first. I picked up some clothes, toiletries, and a suitcase. I had $10,000 of saved up cash in my bank account that I had never used. I walked to the bus station. While waiting for the bus I thought about Luke. 

I missed him so much. His smile, his laugh, his hug.. I had just realised that I was wearing his big sweater at the motel. It still smelt like him. I wanted him here. I wanted to cuddle him. But I couldn't. I needed to get my life back together first. It wouldn't be fair on Luke. I checked my phone and saw that I had 3 new messages. I ignored them. I just didn't want to hurt him more. I leaned back against the bus sign. This was going to be a long ride.