Everything is Shitty

Chapter Thirteen - Civil

Stan
    Oh my poor baby... Once we get back to his room I make sure to lock the door. He silently changes his clothes and lays in bed. I feel bad for him, but I don't know what to do. I don't know if he's gonna push me away again just because Tweek is here.
"Do you want me to go?" I ask, he seems to be thinking about it.
"Will you hold me?" He asks in a very vulnerable whimper. I feel my heart twist a little, oh Craig.... I walk over and crawl under the sheets with him, he immediately clings to me.
"I've got you." I say softly. Im not letting him go until I have to. Which will be when I have to go to work in the morning.
Craig intertwines our legs and holds himself up against me "Relax a little bit, honey. I'm not going anywhere." I remind him. I can tell he's trying.
     The next morning, I get up before him. God damnit. He's the one that scheduled me at 8am! We aren't even open then! I slowly untangle myself from Craig and kiss his forehead. That's enough to wake him up as he whimpers and grabs my arm.
    "You said you weren't going anywhere..." he tries to pull me back.
    "Craig, I have to go to work." I say very softly as I lean down and kiss his forehead again.
    "You can't leave me... it seems like you're the only one on my side..." Craig whimpers.
    I feel bad leaving him, I really do, but I need money and I can't just have him call me out. I want to help him, but I want to get out of here.
    "I'll come back over after I promise, and you can call me if you need me... I'll answer..." I tap his nose and he groans.
    "Okay..." He lays back down and I head downstairs. Tweek is sitting at the dining table with a cup of coffee. His hand on his temple.
    "Hey..." I say softly, he looks at me and then glares.
    "You just had to come into his life, didn't you? you had to steal his fragile little heart from me?" Tweek asks
     "I didn't intend to do any of that. I just wanted him to live. He was... a lot different when I first started working with him... he didn't have anything and I wanted to give him something... I didn't know he'd get feelings for me.. I didn't know he was capable of loving someone that isn't you." I shrug
    "Did he... say anything about me?" Tweek asks
    "He was always in denial about loving you. Constantly told me that he didn't, but... I'm sure even now, that he's with me, he's probably still got some feelings for you. He can't just drop those off with the snap of his fingers."
    "Would you.... let him go..?" Tweek asks
    "That's his choice... I'm not backing down just for you to step up for him. In the end. It's all up to who he wants to be with." I answer "if he chooses to be with you, then I'll be fine letting him go, if he doesn't, then it will be up to you to let him go."
    "I don't want to go back to Berlin... it doesn't feel like home..." Tweek admits
    "So... you'll force Craig with you so you don't have to go back? I don't think that's the right way to go..."
    "I just want to see if anything is still there... a spark... something..." he shrugs
    "You should talk to Craig about it. I've gotta go to work." I sigh and pat his back as I leave, I go home and get chewed out by my mom. To which I tell her I probably won't be living there much longer, and I go to work.

Craig
   Damnit Stan... what am I supposed to do without my backup?! I sigh and eventually pull myself out of bed, throwing on a shirt and keeping my pajama pants on. I make my way downstairs and see Clyde on his dumb game. I look over and see Tweek at the dining table. He's got a piece of toast that he's playing with, along with a half empty cup of coffee.
    "Morning." I say softly, and Tweek looks over at me with a small smile
    "Hey." He sighs, I go and take a seat next to him.
    "Are you ready to have a civil conversation?" I ask
    "Are you?" He asks back, and I sigh
    "Yes." And he nods in return
    "Why didn't you text me?" I ask and he sighs and rubs his arm.
    "Because I left the chat... I thought it would be dumb if I just... started a new one to say 'hey I changed my mind' I bought a ticket back to Colorado."
    "Why did you?"
    "I don't like it in Berlin. It doesn't feel like home... here... feels like home." Tweek taps the cup of coffee.
    "I understand that..." I sigh, and Tweek look up at me
    "Y'know... you're cuter than I remember." He smiles lightly "if I only knew..."
    "Heh... thanks.... uh... you're just as stunning as I remember." I spent a lot of time looking at him after we broke up. It was sad, really.
    "Oh Craig..." he covers his heart "Do you... still have feelings for me?" Tweek asks
    "I... well... of course I do... they can't just go away at the snap of my fingers..."
    Tweek holds his hand out and I look at it, then him "Y'know.... there are a million people in this world I could be with... but still I'm drawn to you." He says, I look at him, then our hands
    "This isn't fair... not to Stan..." I state
    "How do we make it fair?" Tweek asks
    "I...I... Fuck I don't know!" I let go of his hands and run mine through my hair. "I... think I've got to pursue what I've got going with Stan..." I sigh "It's new... and I think I really need that..." I clear my throat "that being said... I'm still open to being your friend. Your best friend and that... and if you want, you can stay in a spare room upstairs. It was supposed to be Clyde's, but he lives on my couch." I sigh.
    Tweek nods "I understand, Craig, and I'd be more than happy to be your best friend." Tweek looks down with a light smile "I'll take the room, and I'll even help with the bills as soon as I find a job here." He smiles
    "Thank you, Clyde doesn't do much for the house, and Stan has been helping so I might bring Stan in to live with us... if he's gonna pay and clean around here he might as well, right?" I ask
    "Right, ahh this is gonna be so fun." Tweek says as he claps a few times. Then he calms down "Why haven't you kicked Clyde out?" He asks
    "I needed some sort of human interaction outside of work, and Clyde is good for that. Plus he's fun to yell at sometimes, though... now that I've got two other people moving in, he might have to find somewhere else." I shrug, he could probably move in with Token or something. Token and his Fiancée, Nichole.
    "Yeah probably, then it can just be a house of gays." Tweek chuckles
   "Oh yes. I'd love that." Stan is bi, but I guess he's being gay by being with me. Though that isn't how that works, and he'll probably still jerk off to straight porn next to me when he thinks I'm asleep.
   Tweek and I have a pleasant conversation before discussing his room, decorations, jobs, and all that good stuff. I do have to say that Tweek moving in makes me a little nervous, but I think it'll be okay.