Can't Stand To See You Cry (Jacob)

Chapter 5

Renesmee sighed when Jacob continued down the path still carrying her. At first he had swooped her up to avoid talking about Seth, but now he rather liked holding her this way. She was close enough for him to smell her hair and it made him stifle a smile.

Jacob's smile turned into a scowl when Ness started asking about Seth again. "I don't know what your problem is..."

Jacob shook his head and replied, "I like Seth. He's like my little brother."

"You didn't like him the night of our party," she reminded him.

Jacob pressed his lips together as the memories of that night came flooding back. Six months ago, the two of them planned a party in his new home. Renesmee made all the arrangements and made sure all of the pack was invited. They cooked out, on the grill and had a huge bonfire to celebrate Jacob buying his first home. He had done all the renovations with some help from his tribe and she could not have been more proud.

The party had gone smoothly until later in the night when the pack start rough housing and Renesmee had been knocked to the ground. Jared didn't mean to do it, but Jacob didn't care. Jacob grabbed Jared by the throat and threatened him. Seth put his arm around Ness, picked her up and dusted her off, making sure she was okay. But she was horrified seeing Jacob so angry. Then he took that anger out on Seth, who had done nothing wrong.

Jacob pulled Seth away from Ness when he had left a protective arm around her during the fight. And before Jacob could take a swing at Seth, Renesmee shoved Jacob back, exclaiming, "Don't ever talk to me again!"

No one could believe the she had stood up to Jacob. Jacob and Renesmee had never had a fight...ever. They all agreed that Jacob's behavior was ridiculous, but the guys tended to battle out their differences physically, so no one was shocked about Jacob's hot-headed nature.

Jacob quickly apologized to Jared for flying off the handle, but when he tried to tell Renesmee he was sorry, she basically told him to stuff it and asked Seth to drive her home. Ever since then, Ness had kept her distance from Jacob and Seth didn't seem to trust Jacob anymore. Renesmee hadn't been on the reservation much since that night, which made last night's appearance that much more surprising.

"I've told you how sorry I am, so many times," he began.

She nodded quickly, "I know, I just never understood why you acted that way. I mean, those are your brothers," she emphasized.

Jacob swallowed thickly and stopped to place Renesmee back on two feet. "I was an ass, plain and simple. I was jealous and stupid and I know I scared you. I don't know what else to say."

Renesmee made a face and repeated, "Jealous? Of Seth?"

Jacob sucked in a deep breath and sighed as he raked his fingers through his hair. "I can't explain it. It all happened so fast and if I could take it back, I would."

Ness pulled back from him, still confused as ever. "Can you just promise no interference in my love life?"

Jacob scowled and repeated, "Love life?"

She sighed, completely exasperated, and added, "I don't have one yet and if you and my parents don't give me some space, I never will!" She didn't mean to yell, but her frustration was through the roof. It seemed like no one in her life wanted her to grow up.

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They were almost to Sam and Emily's now. Jacob used the last few steps to think about just what he wanted to say to her. He squeezed her shoulder and she turned to face him. "I know," he paused to take a deep breath so he could get out everything you he wanted to say, "that I screwed up. I really miss you and I being so close, like we were before, so at this point I would agree to almost anything so I can have you back in my life again," he blurted quickly.