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I Read The Letter Too Late

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I held the letter delicately in my hands as I read it.

Dear Malia,
I knew I couldn't say this to you in person so I thought I'd write it. It's been killing me to say this to you for a very long time. I'm just gonna go ahead and say it. I love you. I love you so much Mal. I don't know what it is but whenever you're in the room, my heart skips a beat and I get so nervous around you.
My whole life I've felt like a burden to others. When my Dad left me, I distanced myself from everyone because I knew I could never trust anyone because all they're gonna do is leave in the end. I made a decision by trusting you and that had to be the best decision I've ever made in my entire life. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me. I never wanted to tell you this in person because I was afraid of not just losing you but also losing a close friend who means the world to me. You mean the world to me Mal. You're perfect in any way and I feel like the most luckiest person in the world that I met you. You inspire me to keep going in life and you inspire me not to quit. Whenever I talk to you I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders or when I see your name pop up on my notifications, I feel like my stomach is going to explode from being so nervous.
You mean so much to me Mal and I know you do because whenever I see you upset, it makes me wanna take away the happiness from everyone else in the world because I can't stand to see you cry or even make a sad face. That's the reason why I always pushed you away, it's because I was so scared of you leaving me in the end and I was always nervous because part of me really wanted to tell you the truth. I didn't wanna lose another person so dear to me.
It's okay if you never want to talk to me again Malia, I understand but I know I had to tell you this or else I'll regret it for the rest of my life if I never did and right now I'm hoping that there could be a chance for us. I guess I'm just waiting for the impossible to happen and I hope you feel the same way.

~love from Aidan :)   X

I lifted my head up and smiled.
I love him too.....

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Whenever a story has a chapter that doesn't go to plan or how you want it, you can either close the book or go onto the next chapter hoping it would turn out good in the end. And it did.

The first few weeks when Aidan died were the worst days of my life. I felt like the days were moving so slowly and I couldn't find a way to ever smile again.

There were a lot of people at Aidans funeral. I was kinda surprised as well because nobody was there for him when he was standing on his feet and they would rather see him on his back. It showed that people only care once you're gone. It truly made me so sad.

The funeral was a few days after the incident. But there was someone I didn't expect to see there.

I laid a rose on Aidans grave. We were all surrounding the fresh soil including Aidans mom, Addison, Evelyn, a few of Aidans aunts and Uncles and I.
Everyone else had gone home but he stayed a little later.

Addison put her hand on my shoulder "I think we should go now."
I nodded.

I took a look at Aidans mom before going and I shook my head. She never cared one bit about him. She never understood him when he tried to explain to her.
Apparently the police station tried to call Aidans mom when she was at her wedding. Elliot obviously answered her phone and when they told him something happened to Aidan, he hung up.

I walked with Addison to the bench near us and I took a deep breath. Evelyn and Aidans mom left as well. They must've gone home too.

Addison and I sat in silence. No words could fix this sad time for any of us. So much damage had been done and I was sure it couldn't get any worse. Now I know how my mom must've felt when she saw Uncle Zack die right in front of her. I don't wish that upon anyone.
I felt like Aidan had taken a piece of my heart with him as well because right now, all I felt was empty.