In the Shadows

Chapter 8

*Bey POV*

Why the hell is Shawn here? How the hell does he know where I live? Not that I'm complaining that he's here or anything, I'm just so freaking confused. I'm excited to see him tho. I'm trying to hide my smile and not show that though.

"Shawn, how do you know where I live?"

"I'm your boss, as well as the CEO of a billon dollar company... It wasn't that hard to find out, especially since I have your contact information."

"Well why are you here?"

"I know I just saw you before you left work, but this just is not settling well with me. It's not making sense to me. My feelings for you are so strong, the strongest feelings I have ever had for a female, and we just met. The effect you have on me is like no other. I don't understand it. To be honest, I don't know why I came here to tell you that."

"Shawn, I feel the exact same way you do. It's not adding up to me either, especially since I hardly know you. You make me feel.... I don't even know. You just make me feel good inside, the way we interact gives me a good feeling. Something nobody else has ever made me feel."

Shawn makes his way over to me and places his hands on my waist, and allows them to fall down and rest on my hips. He lets his head fall down and meet my head, so we now stand forehead to forehead. We remain silent. All we can hear is the sound of each other breathing while we stand still. The silence was far from awkward, it was comforting. Neither of us know what's going on between us or what's going to happen, but this right here meant something. This comfortable silence was assuring. Just standing there in his grasps made me sure of it.

Suddenly, I hear the loudest knock on my door which cause both Shawn and I to jump out of fear.

"Big booty bitch, open up!" I hear Kelly shout while giggle and still pounding on my door.

"Oh shit." Shawn and I whisper in unison.

"Open the door and follow my lead Ms.Knowles." Shawn said.

I make my way over to the door and answer Kelly. Of course Kelly just struts in like she's the Queen and owns the damn place, and by judging the look on her face, she was getting ready to say some smart shit... I assume about me and Mr.Carter.

So BB, did you jump on Mr.Carter's di-"

Shawn instantly cut her off. "Hello Kelly." he said waving in her direction. "Ms. Knowles, please complete the assignment I came here to discuss with you. It's very important that you think it through as well. I will see you at work tomorrow. Good night ladies." And with that, I watched Shawn walk out the door.

I feel so incomplete. We didn't establish anything. Yes, we confessed our feelings for each other, but does that really mean anything? It's just a sense of wanting. Wanting doesn't mean you'll ever get something. I feel like I need him, not just want. I also feel ridiculous for feelings this way already about this man. Is it just me feeling empty about my loss of Michael, and the feeling of that betrayal? Are these temporary feelings that are just filling those voids? It can't be, it feels like it's so much more than that.

"Bey, why was Mr.Carter really here?" Kelly asks, interrupting my thoughts. At this point, concern actually took over her. I think she could see the disappointment in my expression.

"We discussed work that needs to be done, Kels. That's all."

"Don't insult me by bullshitting me. You know I know you better, than you know your own damn self. Something is going on with you two. From the looks on your face, it runs deeper than lust and want. There's something there Bey, so tell me what's up."