In Between

It's Not Right

Wait! Raina! So, you are telling me that you slept with him then you wake up to two different text messages from two different people, who we thought was the same damn person! Sitting up in my bed stunned just knowing how the hell do I explain this to myself and how do I explain me sleeping with my brother's business partner who I thought was telling a lie about his identity. My mind all fucked up now, I mean I don't regret what happened, I am a grown ass single woman so why should I feel some type of way about hooking up with him. I feel horrible about knowing it's a possibility they are twins, well I know they are you don't just see double versions of people like oh well they just favor each other or maybe they related. T I don't know where to begin, why do I have to explain myself, don't you agree? Shouldn't they be telling me something? Well girl for one they did see you on two separate occasions, they probably didn't know themselves. Raina, we need to back this all the way up, we need to put some pieces together and find out, so I say talk to both of them. Both of them! Girl you out yo damn mind if you think I'm gonna be fucking around with two brothers come on now Taylor. Tell me exactly what you did wrong Raina like for real, you meet two different guys separately how can you control the outcome of that. Yeah you do have a point T. this is just too much, I'm about to lay back down and get my head wrapped around all of this, I'll give you a call a little later. Okay so how about this? I know you need me right now; I'll wait on your call but I'm going to pack me an overnight bag, grab us some fish and salad and a bottle of wine, and I'll stay with you tonight. We have to be at work in the morning anyway so we can just talk things out how about that? T you know I wanted yo stanky ass over here anyway I start laughing. Yes, please come over, how about five is that cool? Yeah girl I got you see you then make sure you text or call me okay? Okay I will love you T, love you too. I slide back down into my sheets tossing my phone on the side of me, I really don't want to talk to either one of them, but I know I can't escape it. My phone vibrates so I roll over on my left side to see who it could be and its Cole saying what happened to me last night. I shake my head, what happened last night, he really doesn't want to know. Noting it was almost one o'clock I text Cole: CALL YOU WHEN I GET UP, he replies: OH YEAH YOU HAD TO GET WAISTED YOU DON'T BE IN BED THIS LATE LOL! HIT ME UP WHENEVER SIS. Closing my phone out I roll over on my back and drift back off to sleep. Maybe I'll feel a little better after this nap. As I slept, I start having this dream about me and Jacob having sex outside somewhere, it was very pleasant and private, and no one was around. Right when he was about to have some good sex, I jumped up because of the sensation of me having to pee. Damn! Running my naked ass to the bathroom I sit on the toilet knees together and arms folded across one another looking like a lost puppy. Since I was in the bathroom, I began me a hot bath with some lavender and honey which was much needed for some relaxation time. I soaked for a good twenty to thirty minutes, brushed my teeth, brushed my hair leaving it down going straight back then head to my closet. I love being naked, I think I'm always naked unless I'm outside or have company. I am not going anywhere so I think I'll throw on me this yellow crop top and some black leggings. T coming over so if I need anything, I'll tell her to bring it. Sitting at my vanity I butter my body with some honey vanilla and leave it at that. After I get dressed, I throw on me some socks, grab my phone, and its 4: 44p.m, perfect timing. I see a text from Jacob with the thinking emoji and I laugh. I know he not whipped already so I text him back: HEY JACOB, HOW ARE YOU? Really Raina how are you I roll my eyes, so cliché, I mean what else to say to his ass. He quickly replies: I'M FEELING GREAT NOW YOU FINALLY REPLYING TO MY TEXT. I bet I'm thinking with a sneaky smirk on my face. He replies again: LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING YOU WHEN YOU COME THIS WAY. Me: YES, MUTUAL FEELING. Jacob: CAN I HIT YOU UP A LITTLE LATER AND WE CAN TALK? Me: SURE, I WOULD LIKE THAT TTYL. Jacob: OK, COOL TTYL. I then scroll to the text James sent; I don't even know how to reply. I keep thinking it's a game, but the persona they give off is one hundred percent grown man, no games played, but nowadays you wouldn't be surprised they type of stuff females and dudes be on. I just say Raina stop being a punk and text the man, I'm feeling nervous, anxious, doubtful, all the above. If his ass playing, Cole gone whoop his ass. Now how I'm gone act like we back in school getting my brother to jump on him, if anything Cole is going to look at me like sis really what the hell going on, especially how crazy I was acting when they came over. I go ahead and message the man. Me: NICE TO FINALLY HEAR FROM YOU. James: (big smile emoji) YOU JUST MADE MY DAY; I DIDN'T KNOW IF YOU WOULD RESPOND. Me: YES, I WAS, I WOULDN'T DO YOU LIKE THAT, HAD A LONG NIGHT LAST NIGHT. James: ITS COOL I CAN UNDERSTAND THAT, SO LISTEN, I RATHER TALK TO HEAR YOUR VOICE, IS THAT COOL WITH YOU? CAN I CALL YOU? What am I getting myself into, I do deserve an explanation, but they don't know or do they? I know he wants to see me so I might as well get over the what ifs really quick. I text him back sure a call would be nice. Right after I text him my phone vibrates, and James name pops up. I take a deep breath like my ass about to dive in a pool but so nervous I almost forgot to exhale. Hello, I answer in a soft voice. The lovely Raina how are you sweetheart? Oh, I'm just fine, just sitting here thinking about dinner how about yourself. I'm actually fairly well, just made it back home from California a few hours ago and you were the first person on my mind. You've been on my mind since I left your store. That's very nice to hear, I'm guessing your a very busy man. Something like that he laughs, and for some reason I get a chill down my spine. His voice is much smoother and its sexy, he does sound a little different. Jacob voice is so demanding and sexy as well. I might enjoy this, but his it's not right, I must keep a leveled head because I will let it be known how I met both of them. Yes, I am busy, I own a construction company called J&J. Jackpot! It's like I hit for some grands at the casino when he told me that because J&J has to stand for James and Jacob. Okay that is awesome, I could only imagine the paperwork you have to do, I laugh to kind of loosen the conversation but really loosen up myself. Yeah, a lot of that, so listen I would like to properly take you out if possible. Is it cool if you tell me when your free? Well I'm free when I need to be, this weekend is fine, is that a good time for you? Yes, that's not a problem I'm also a flexible person when it comes to getting away from work. So, baby listen, I'm about to check on some things and get settled in, but I would love to call you later so we can talk. Wow, he really does want to chat it up, I'd really like that because now a days texting is talking. He made me blush thinking about when he first appeared in my store. I would love that James talk with you soon. Alright Raina be good, I'll hit you up soon as I'm done. Getting off the phone I feel good. I am super excited to see James and I wonder what he has planned for us. My phone vibrates back to back, is see one from T saying she on her way then one from Jacob saying he will call me tomorrow something came up. I frown up in confusion because I'm like damn tomorrow, then I start thinking about his phone blowing u after two in the morning.

Authors Note: This is a good thing? I do feel where she's coming from I mean she really shouldn't feel bad but its a respect thing also. You just don't wanna be sleeping around with two brothers. Well all I can say is, Raina think fast honey child, I'm looking up to you in a situation like this, help me figure it out if I end up in this type of love triangle. Stay tuned, its plenty more to come.