In Between

Upside Down

My buzz is gone, my sleepiness is gone, and I feel like everything has went overboard. I will set this straight, because its one thing James came by my job, which I believe he had an innocent reason why and he told me, but Jacob, how in the fuck does he know where I work. See, I am upset because my language getting foul, I only cuss when I'm tipsy or pissed off and right now I'm both. All I can think of is grabbing my keys and go right back to my store and tell him his ass is out of line. Waiting on him to call, I am pacing my living room wondering what I will say once he calls. My phone rings, what the hell is wrong with you Jacob showing up at my job. Whoa! hold up, you the one that snuck out on me last night so I'm the one who should feel some type of way. Is this nigga delusional, like he my man, damn my pussy doing all of this? Jacob, listen, I would appreciate it if you come to me about showing up at my job first, that is my personal space and what we been doing lately is not on the level for the public eye. Well to me we way past personal baby, and Cole told me about you owning a bookstore so that's how I found out. So that gives you permission to make an appearance? Listen, I don't need permission from any fucking body, so you can kill that shit right now. Jacob done lost his mind if he thinks for a second, I'll tolerate him talking to me like this. Last night I noticed his little attitude, then the way he was talking in the background when me and James was on the phone. Now he about to catch a taste of Chicago if he hasn't been there yet. Jacob, listen to me, and listen to me real fucking well. I am not your side chick, your woman, or your fuck buddy. I do not want you at my job ever again with your disrespectful ass, so as of now I am done with this or whatever we have going on. So, it's like that Raina baby, don't let this go so easily, I didn't mean to come at you like that. You know what, goodbye Jacob. All I could do was hang up the phone on him because that phone call was too much drama for me at that moment. He straight up tried to check me and he not my man, where they do that at. If he was my man, he wouldn't, or we wouldn't be coming at each other like that. A text come through and its from Jacob: I AM SORRY RAINA, I'LL MAKE IT UP TO YOU. Okay, what is really going on with him, doesn't he understand what the hell I just told him. I am not responding to him, this has gone too far but for a second I wonder if he's really going through some things. Maybe, he didn't mean to snap out, no, fuck that, I'm about to shower and take a nap so my mind can rejuvenate before James call. Stop! Leave me alone! Why are you here? Raina I just want to show you that I love you, why are you acting like this don't you love me Raina. Jacob let go of me and how did you know where I lived? Jacob towers over me and holds my arms above my head as he has me pinned down on my bed, handling me so rough that it hurts. Baby I love you, I love you Raina, you are mines and we will be together. He keeps trying to kiss me and I am moving my face side to side every time he tries. No! Jacob please just let me go, he then snatches my legs open and takes his hand to massage my vagina, now I am afraid and loving it at the same time. My cries for him to stop grows into moans and he starts kissing all over me, I grab his head and direct him to my breast as he sucks my nipples so gently. Raina! What the fuck is this? James! No! it's not what you think, James bust through my room door and see me and Jacob and this looks in his eyes are filled with flames or anger. I jump up and sit straight up in my bed, my chest is heaving like crazy and I must calm down because that was a nightmare that I don't ever want to come true. I sat there feeling horrible to have dreamt that so just imagine what it would feel like in reality. I knew I needed a nap but minus the nightmare of Jacob and James being caught in the middle of a scene like that. I am definitely prepared to talk with James, I cannot hurt him even if we do not continue to communicate, I just feel it's the right thing to do. What's really on my mind is getting prepared for Friday, I need to look in this closet of mine to see what all I need. How can I pack if I don't know the weather or location? This is so exciting, but I don't know what to expect. He says it's a place I will love, I'm thinking maybe he loves this place also, well duh Raina most likely he does if he wants to share it with you. I wonder if I should bring something sexy. That's a yes to that, why wouldn't I, this man could be the one, I want to make it special if we get to an intimate moment. I am really sitting here thinking all of this craziness to myself, I need to slow it down unless I want another Jacob on my hands. Looking through my clothes I see a couple of high waisted jeans I like, one in olive, the other in a pre-wash denim. I find an all brown bodycon dress with mid length sleeves and this black, red, and white Chanel dress that I haven't seen since my birthday. The plan was to wear it to the grand opening of the store, but I was tired of getting things in order I just left some regular clothes on. I really wanted to wear this bad ass dress, it has the back out down to above my butt, the mid sleeves, and fits snug all the way down to right under my knees. The Chanel is spelled out around the neckline in black and white, then the whole middle section is all black and from the waist down its deep red. This dress needs to come with me this weekend, he is talking about a private jet, who knows what places we may go. So far, I want to take these two pair of jeans and this dress, oh no, I'm about to go shopping. I have plenty of clothes, but this is a special weekend. I get dressed and head out to the mall, taking my time gathering every little thing I could possibly need for this little getaway. Leaving the clothing stores, I had to hit up Bath and Body Works and Victoria Secret, that was a must. I want to smell like he can eat me, which he can. What if I didn't go there with James, maybe we should hold off on the intimate level. Who am I lying to, if it happens it happens, you can't stop your connection. Now that I think about it, I wish I stopped myself with Jacob. Saying his name out loud but in a whisper tone, before I could walk through the food court on my way out, I see Jacob and Flynn talking. What the fuck is this, how does Jacob and Flynn know each other. Then Flynn ass in his uniform with his boxes sitting there probably need to be delivered with his late ass messing up folks' orders, out here messing around on his job. I stand behind the cookie shop and glance a little longer, on top of not trying to be seen by Jacob. They shake each other's hands in a conclusion of their conversation and Jacob leaves but Flynn grabs his dolly and walks off through the food court. I jump in line so he wouldn't see me, it was a good camouflage too because he walked right by and didn't notice me with his Lorenz Tate looking ass. I am so puzzled on why and how they know each other. What could they possibly be talking about and Jacob isn't even from around here. This is beginning to be too much for me, I stay in line to get me some chocolate chip cookies, I need them, my stress food. On my way home I thought about telling T what I just witnessed but I'll wait until she gets off, she'll probably want to investigate the whole thing. She'll probably tell me to just ask Jacob, but I wasn't trying to be noticed, shit I don't want to see him. Now I feel as if Jacob on some foul shit, but that's a free man he can live how he please and know whoever he wants. It's just crazy he didn't mention it to me. He probably doesn't know Flynn deliveries for me. Oh no! he's a liar, he said Cole mentioned it to him, but he knows Flynn, I need to watch myself this is crazy. You know what, I am not going to continue to think about none of this and let this disturb me before my weekend. Pulling up at home I see Mr. Carl working on his car and wave, that man knows he stay busy. Making it into my condo I put like six bags on the living room couch. I go to the kitchen, get my crystal wine glass, pour me some red wine and slide my shoes off. I pull my phone out of my back pocket and text T: GIRL, HELP ME PRPARE FOR MY WEEKEND, STAY WITH ME UNTIL I LEAVE PLEASE, ITS JUST A COUPLE OF DAYS, I'LL EVEN COOK FOR YOU (SMILEY FACE). T texts me back: YOU ALREAD KNOW I WILL, CALL YOU AFTER I CLOSE THE STORE, GOTTA GO GET CLOTHES. I grab all my bags and take them to my room to start looking through them. Oh yes! Wait until Taylor see's this, better yet, wait until James do.

Authors note: Somebody please tell me Jacob not astalker and Raina is not feeling soft on him. Why would she even considerfeeling bad for him he seems totally out of line. I hope she fix this situationbut now we see Flynn knows Jacob too. I need more information because I amabout to become an investigator myself. Until next chapter, thanks for reading