I'm not really lost

Chapter 12

I woke up early and turned to see Felix sleeping there. I smiled at him as I stared at him. I heard a sound and sat up, slowly looking around. "It's nothing, just lay back down." I looked down at Felix, who now had a smile on his face. "You still can smile."I said, joking. I heard him let out a chuckle and I slowly laid back down. "Do you think-" " I don't want to think right now." Felix muttered. "You don't want to think right now? You don't want to think about what you have to do is more like it." I muttered. "That's it. That's the one." he said. "Pan with want to-" " I don't want to think about what will happen out there." Felix said. I stopped for a moment, before the events of yesterday came back to me. "Felix?" I asked. "What?" he asked, half asleep. "Do you think I'm a bad guy?" I asked him. He sat up and looked down at me. "What no. Is this about your mother and what you said to her? I know you didn't want to say that. Peter wouldn't want to hear it." he said to me. I watched as he stood up and throw on his cape. "Felix, do you even have the feeling like something bad is going to happen?" I asked. "Things happen all the time. It could be bad, because bad things happen all the time." he said to me as I sat up.

I heard him let out a sigh as he stood with his back to me. He turned to face me, grabbing my cheeks, he stared me right in the eyes. I looked at him and I could feel that my face was heating up. "But, good things happen too." he said to me. I smiled at him, but hear something "Wake up. I got you." Pan said, somewhat loud. Felix let me go as I walked to the door of the tent. There was Pan with Henry, I grabbed my coat and ran out the tent, throwing it on. "I don't like apples." Henry said as I stood there. "Who doesn't like apples?" Pan asked. "It's a family thing." Henry said up to him. "Don't worry. They're not for eating. It's for a kind of game. A really fun game." Pan said, kneeling. "I call it target practice." He said, pointing the crossbow at Henry. I jumped back and walked over to the fire. I sat down next to Felix and pulled down his hood. He looked up at me for a moment as I smiled.

"You know if you were anyone else I would have knocked you out." he said, trying to look tough as I opened my eyes. "Yes, but I'm not anyone else." I said back to him. He smirked up at me and I sat down next to him. I pulled on his arm, pulling his ear down to me. "That's

Three and a half." I whispered to him, and I watched as he smiled once more. "If you're shooting the apple what's the poison for?" Henry asked. "A motivation not to miss." Pan said playing with the crossbow. "Felix. Get over here." Pan yelled and my heart started beating faster. I watched as Felix stood up, making me get up as well. "Is Felix good? Is his aim good?" Henry asked Pna, but his eyes were on me. I shrugged. I've never seen him shot a crossbow before, how should I know. "Doesn't matter. You're the one doing the shooting." Pan said and my heart dropped. "I don't wanna shoot." Henry said. "Shoot. Shoot. Shoot." The lost boys chanted, but my heart was beating so fast it was hard to hear.

I looked at Felix for a moment, his eyes looking over at me as he shook his head. He was trying to tell me not to do anything. "You won't hit him. Trust yourself. Go on." Pan said as Felix sent the apple on his head. "It's exhilarating." Pan said to Henry. "No, it's not." I muttered. "Shoot. Shoot. Shoot." they kept going and I ran out from the crowd. "Enough." I said loudly and I watched as Henry pulled the trigger, but the arrow was coming at me. I raised my arms, blocking my face and stopped the arrow. Pan was looking right at me, his eyes were full of anger as I turned my arms and slowly opened my hands, sending the arm back at him.

"Told you it was exhilarating." Pan said to Henry, but I walked away from everyone and hit a tree. What I did was bad. Like really bad, it's a knight going up on a king. I wasn't going to like the outcome and I would most likely be locked up. Locked up and never seen again, never saved, never see the forest again. I kneeled down and leaned on the tree. I could only, mostly hear my heartbeat and my quick breath. I looked up to see Pan standing there, he snapped his fingers and we were in his tent. I found it hard to breath, my breathing was slow. The slowest it's even been. Pan turned to face me, there was something in his hands, but I couldn't see it. He snapped his fingers once more and my clothes changed. "A dress? Really?" I asked him. "No,but this is." he said and placed a cuff on my arm. The same one from earlier. "Wear it for today and tomorrow. Understand?" he said to me. I slowly nodded and walked out of his tent.