I'm not really lost

Chapter 18

I could see the others from where I was sitting. I rested my arm to raised leg as I watched the lost boys. Dad still not happy about that events that unfolded. Thanks Tinker Bell. So I'm sitting over and away from Felix. I'm not happy. I looked up at Felix as we all sat around. "Now is just as much time I suggest we get started looking." I heard Dad say. I heard movement and saw Regina walked rather quickly. I saw where she was going and I quickly matched her speed. "Where is he?!" Regina asked Felix, grabbing him out of his seat. "Regina." I said loudly and she turned to face me. "What?!" She asked just as loud. "He don't know where he is." I told her and she turned to face me fully, dropping Felix. "He's Pan's second, he should know." She said to me. I walked right up to her as she stood there. I slowly pulled out the thing I found in Pan's tent, before holding it with both on my hands. I slowly looked up at her as she stared down at it.

I held the small string that looped through the top as the circle turned a slight yellow color. "I've watched them and he's changed them somehow." I told her and she turned back to face Felix. I walked over to Felix and handed him the dream catcher. "You're backing this-" "You have no idea what these kids have been through." I said back to her. Regina started to walk back to me before Emma stopped her. "Look at these kids. They've been to hell and back. We need to try something else." Emma told her. "Yeah, we tried the cute and cuddly. They don't respond to reason. What else do you have to offer?" Regina asked her. I watched as she looked at her mother. "What every kid wants. A mother." Emma said. I looked down at the ground, away from them.

"Guys, listen to me. We are not going to hurt you. I know you're loyal to Pan and I get that, but you are making a terrible mistake. For a long time, I thought I was never gonna find my family. I was an orphan like all of you. A lost girl. And I was reminded today that I am not alone. That I have a lot of people who love me. And I never thought that was gonna happen. If that can happen to me, it can happen to you." Emma said to them as I watched her. It was quiet for a moment, not a word spoken. I kept looking around, the air was rough as all the lost boys looked this way. I watched each of them before I saw Devin looked annoyed. "Family doesn't do what he did. Pan lied to you and made you do terrible things. He lied to Henry and convinced him to give up his own heart!" Emma added. "To save the island." John said. "No, to save himself." Emma said and I looked back as Devin. "Felix are you going to just let her talk like this about Pan?" Devin asked, getting out of his seat. I looked up at his face and stared.

"Devin." I started. "She, she's a traitor. She ran away from Pan. She's nothing more than a run away that she killed." Devin spat and everyone turned to face me. I sighed before I stood up and walked over to where Emma is. "Yes, it's true...Pan called me a traitor. For wanting to leave. And at the time that wasn't true. Pan used that to cover it up. He knew my heart wasn't in hurting a person at cared about me. A person I grow to care about." I said to them. "But Pan made sure you healed." John said. "The only reason he kept me was so I could I could carry out him plan." I said and I looked around at each on them. "We all know who really took care of me." I added. "You still killed all those run away with almost a snap of you fingers effect." Devin said and I turned to face him. "They were going to kill us. I protected each and every one of you that day. If Pan really cared about you he would have dealt with it before they get as powerful as they were. If Pan cares, he'd be here now." I told them. They all looked up at me for a moment. "Don't listen to her. Pan cares about of us." Devin said.

"No, he doesn't. We care about you. And we can save you. We can take you home with us. To our land. There's no reason to fear Pan anymore. Until he absorbs the power from Henry's heart, he can be stopped." Emma said. "You just have to tell us where he is." Snow said looking around. "Felix are you really going to let them talk about Pan like this? What are you going to do Felix?" Devin asked. We all turned to face Felix as he sat there, he was thinking, but he looked lost. "I...I don't know." I heard him mutter. His faith is shaken as everyone was looking up to him. "What should we do?" I hear John ask and I turned to face him, he was looking at me. Shit, what do I say now? How did he do this when Pan was away? "You know what you should do." I turned to look up at Devin. "You should leave." He added. I walked over to him, before I felt something around my wrist. I looked down to see that cuff. "Matt." I muttered before I looked up.