things i wish you knew

to the one i'm with now

it's crazy, really. two months ago i didn't even know who you are, but now here we are.

i remember when we first started talking - a mutual friend introduced us and gave us a warning not to date each other... oops...

we talked all the time. i finally got you to use facetime and not hate every second of it.

we immediately trusted each other and told each other things that seemed way too personal to be sharing, but somehow it didn't matter.

we kept talking and talking until i knew that there was no way i could just be friends with you. but it was scary because we weren't supposed to date, according to our friend. we did, though. we got his permission and we started dating.

i honestly forgot what it felt like to be so happy all the time. just seeing your name on my phone is enough to make me smile like an idiot. when i pictured how this summer was going to go, i can promise you that i didn't see it going this way, but here we are. here we are.

i find myself daydreaming back to the night you came over and we watched the office on my couch. you put your arm around me and i put my head on your chest. i looked up at you and you smiled at me and butterflies flooded my stomach.

you make me smile over the littlest things. but more importantly, you make me feel like me again. and i love that. and i love you.

august 11, 2019