Sanders Sides Highschool AU!

Chapter 4

Trigger warning: Self harm, depression, panic attack.
Stay safe!

Virgil POV

When we reached Patton's house, Patton pulled out his keys from his pocket and unlocked the door. He opened the door for us and we walked in.

The house was quiet. It seemed that no one was home. Patton walked up the stairs and motioned for us to follow behind him.

"Come on, let's go to my room! My parents are...... At work...... So they won't be back for a bit." He started walking up the stairs and we followed behind him. When we reached his room, Patton opened the blue door and walked inside.

The room was pretty small. Almost everything in his room was light blue, with the only exception being the white shelf in the corner of the room. He had stuffed animals lined up on the shelf with cook books on the ends. As we looked around the room, Patton walked out of the room again.

"Alright kiddos! I'll be downstairs preparing a snack for everyone so make yourselves at home! And my room is a little messy. So try not to hurt yourselves!" he waved to us and left the room.

"Alright, see you later!" I sat down on  the floor and sighed. "So.... This room is pretty nice, huh?"

"Yeah, I guess it is, just not very practical." Logan sat down next to me, picking up the book he brought with him and started to read. "I don't get why he has so many stuffed animals on his shelves..."

"Oh come on, Roman! They're so cute, just look at them!" he walked up to the shelf and reached up, trying to get one of the stuffed animals but failing. "Uh, Roman? I don't think you should touch those." I warned him. He just laughed and went back to trying.

"Oh, come on! I'm sure Patton won't mind- Ow!"

Suddenly, a small metal object came falling off of the shelf, hitting Roman and leaving a slash of red on his shoulder. Logan looked up from his book and walked over to him, me following close behind. "Are you alright, Roman?" Logan asked, looking around for what could've fallen.

"I'm fine, it's just a little blood, no need to worry. I'm just wondering what fell off the shelf and hit me!" He said angrily. Logan found the object and picked it up. " I believe it was this."

Between Logans fingers was a small rectangle of metal. It appeared to be the blade of a handheld pencil sharpener. It was dull, and dried blood speckled the blade end.

Why would Patton have something like this?

Wait...no

Patton can't be-

I looked up at the others, shock clearly visible on my face. It seemed the others figured it out too, because they looked back at me with the same shock filled eyes. After a few seconds, a cheery voice broke the silence.

Patton walked in, carrying a plate of cookies "Hey guys, i'm back-" he noticed Roman's scratch and gasped. He quickly put down the plate and ran over "Roman! What happened?" Logan was the first to speak, since everyone was still shaken up about the sudden realization.

"something fell from the shelf and scratched him."

"R-really? What fell?"

"This." Logan held up the blade for Patton to see. Patton's look of worry turned into one of shock.

"H-h-how did y-you g-get t-t-that?"

"Patton, why do you have this?"

Patton was shaking "I-i'm gonna go g-get a b-bandaid" he started to walk away, but Roman grabbed his arm before he could leave. Roman grabbed his sweater sleeve and started to pull it up, but Patton quickly smacked his hand away and shouted.

"G-GET AWAY FROM ME!"

Roman started walking towards Patton, but every step he took, Patton backed away. Patton was violently shaking. Suddenly, he fell to his knees, pulling at his hair and gasping for breath. It took a moment for me to realize what was happening, and when I did, panic shot through me.

Patton was having a panic attack.

I quickly ran to Patton's side. "Breathe, Patton, it's gonna be okay."

Patton had tears in his eyes as he gasped for breath. "I-I-I c-c-cant."

"Yes you can, I know you can. Now follow my lead, Inhale for 4 seconds"

"I-i-it h-hurts"

"I know it hurts, but please trust me. Inhale for 4 seconds."

Patton breathed in.

"Hold for 7 seconds"

Patton complied.

"Breath out for 8 seconds"

Patton sighed.

"You're doing great. It's going to be okay Patton. Inhale for 4 seconds."

As I repeated the steps, Patton slowly calmed down. His breathing slowed and he loosened the grip on his hair.

Logan spoke, still shocked "A-are you alright now Patton?"

"Yeah, I think so. Sorry for making a scene."

I put my arm around him "It's perfectly fine, Patton." I gently grabbed his arm, making him tense but slowly relax. "Can I look at your wrist? If you're not ready, it's fine."

"No, it's okay, but try not to cry, it makes me feel bad." "I'll try not to" I laughed and slowly pulled up his sleeve.

What I saw made my eyes fill with tears, and I covered my mouth in horror. On his wrist were hundreds of slashes, some of them looked to be made that day. I pulled Patton into the tightest hug, tears falling down my cheeks.

"P-patton..... Why?"

"I don't wanna get into it right now...."
He said quieter so only I could hear "Roman would kill me if he found out what I did."

Roman and Logan walked over and hugged Patton as well. Roman was balling and Logan had tears in his eyes.

"Please try your best to stop. I really care about you and I would hate it if you died." Logan sniffed, letting the tears fall.

"I can't make any promises....." He slowly got up. "Can we go eat the snack I bought in? I don't want the mood to be ruined because of me...."

"Alright, just know that you're perfect, and you're enough" I said, getting up and walking towards Patton's bed.

Patton laughed, getting up and following me.

"I know"

(Well shoot now i'm crying)