Introverted Love!

Chapter 20

Since i was only working a half day today i decided to go in even though i had got hardly any sleep and had a throbbing headache from crying most of the night. Liz had come to check on me a few times but each time i had pretented to be asleep not wanting to talk about it. Finally after fajr prayers i had managed to doze off but at 6am my alarm had blared and i rolled out of bed hoping to get through the day. I purposefully took my time getting ready so i could avoid breakfast, besides i needed longer on my makeup this morning to cover the dark circles. I tried to sneak out of the house but Lizetta must have been waiting for me
'I made you some pancakes' she passed me a small box and i said nothing just hugged her goodbye and left knowing tears were close by i got into my car and sped off down the road without looking at the house next door.
I had a lot of paperwork today so i spent most of the morning in my office alone behind a computer screen, around noon i packed up the files i had laid about and placed them back on the bookcase. I took the lift up one floor and popped my head through the laboratory door to wave goodbye to my collegues. They were all huddled around a microscope deciding on lunch when one of them called me
'Maya someone came to see you, i directed him to your office just a minute ago' my heart immediately sank. My first instinct was to just leave and go home but i still had to get my coat and bag. Then i realised it could have been Luke or anyone for that matter so i trudged down the stairs slowly getting more anxious with each step i took. Outside my office door leaning against the door was Zack in blue jeans and a collarless white shirt, casual for a weekday he must not have come from work. I mustered up all the courage i could and walked right past him into my office, grabing my coat and bag i turned to leave in the same manner I'd entered. My plan didnt work, he walked into the office and closed the door behind him standing infront of it. His face had a thoughtful expression like he was still thinking about his next move. My anxiety worsened as i felt trapped so i tried to push past him but as soon as i did he held both my arms and manoeuvred me to stand infront of him
'Let go' i said as calmly as i could
'Maya please you have to hear me out ok'
'I don't HAVE to do anything' i glared at him fighting hard against the tears that threatened to erupt. I would not let him see me cry over this. 
'For gods sake Maya, you saw the pictures you saw what it looked like, don't i have a right to be hurt by what i thought was real'
I laughed a dry laugh and once again tried to loosen myself from his grip but his eyes shifted and in one move he had me pinned to the wall with one hand his other punched the wall behind me. I flinched but he didnt let go instead he moved closer until i could feel his breath on my face. 
'I'm sorry' he whispered
I looked straight into his eyes 'You thought they were real, that i would do that' i pushed him and he moved back but only an inch i still couldnt leave so i pushed him again and before i knew it i was crying and pushing him but he wasnt moving anymore instead he was trying to calm me and eventually he enveloped me into a hug
'I'm sorry' he kept repeating over and over until i didnt want to hear it anymore
Finally after i had exhausted myself i moved out of his grasp and sat down on the desk chair. Zack sat down to on the brown leather chair with my blankets on it.

(Zacks POV)
I sat down in a big brown leather chair and sighed, i could see i was losing her. Everytime i looked at her i was disgusted with myself. I had fallen for it hook line and sinker just like they had both wanted but they had no idea how much i was in love with Maya Pasha, they had no idea that i wouldnt be able to live without her not now after coming this close so i did what they never thought i would - i told her everything. Mum had brought those pictures to me but they would have meant nothing to me without Lukes involvement. Maya had no idea that he would constantly mention his relationship with her asif it was more than friendship and although i ignored it a part of me worried it was true. Yesterday was the nail in the coffin, i had come to home to him telling Zainab that if it wasnt for his troubles he would have already been married to Maya by now. I saw red and kicked him out only to let Mum in with the very pictures that corroborated his story not realising they had been faked.

I got up and walked towards her she didnt move so i knelt infront of her and looked up at her face. I stroked her cheek where mum had marked it causing her to shiver at my touch.
'What can i do?' I pleaded holding her hands in mine
'He said we would have been married' she was processing Luke's betrayal and it hurt me that i was the one who unmasked him. She sat silent thinking for a while.
'Maya you have every right to hate me but i promise for the rest of my life i will never doubt you again, let me make this right...come with me to the place i wanted to take you' i was cautious almost afraid of her answer.
'7pm' she stated simply getting up she grabbed her stuff and walked out of the office without looking at me. This time i let her go hoping tonight i could make up for my sins.