Introverted Love!

Chapter 12

I squeezed Luke's hand
'It's ok Luke it's me Maya I'm here, Lizetta is coming' i sniffed searching for my phone with my right hand
His hand squeezed back
'I'll get a nurse' i tried to move towards the door but his hand never let go so i moved closer
'Maya' he whispered
'Yea it's me Luke, I'm so sorry I should have been there' i started tearing up again
'No Maya you shouldn't be here' i stood shocked but his hand never left mine
'I'm going to get the nurse then we can talk ok' i easily took my hand out of his weak grasp and leftthe room
I waited outside while a doctor and nurse gave him a check over. They both came out at the same time
'He's managed to awake himself and his vitals are stable I'd say he's doing very well but we still need to ascess the damge to his brain from the head trauma. He also has damage to his left leg so recovery time will be a long process he must be patient and you must make sure he does not over exert himself' the doctor spoke loud enough that I'm sure Luke heard everything. I thanked him and fished my phone out
'Dad is Lizetta asleep because Luke has woken up'
'He has woken, how is he? thats great news beta Inshallah everything will be ok now what did the doctors say? I will let her sleep another hour then we'll make our way down'
'He's doing good dad, they will discuss recovery when Lizetta gets here he may even leave ICU' i was so relieved the smile didn't leave my face even when i went back in the room
'Was that Lizetta?' He asked nervous
'No dad, she's asleep he'll bring her soon' i sat down in the chair next to the window
'Maya I'm sorry' he whispered
'For what Luke, scaring the shit out of you're sister and me, getting yourself almost killed?, still takin them damn pills?. What exactly are you sorry for' i tried not to raise my voice but the bitterness stung even me
'All of it, I'm sorry you ever met me' a single tear fell from his right eye and it made my heart sink
'How about we start over from today hmm' i walked over to him and held his hand again
'Hi I'm Maya' i giggled seeing the confusion on his face
'Its nice to meet you' i said before sitting on the edge of the bed. He slightly shook my hand but didnt say anything he just stared at me which made me uncomfortable.
'You know you can eat now, what do you want anything I'll go get it for you?' I smiled
'How about the hawaii burger from The Garden Kitchen' he smirked and my cheeks blushed he heard everything. I tried to hide my embarrassment
'No problem' i tried to stand up again
'Go a little later' he tugged gently on my sleeve and i sat back down

(Luke's POV)
It was dark and I felt like i was floating too close to the sun, my skin burned and my body ached. The darkness devoured chunks of me untill i felt like letting it and prepared to let go. 'Luke' i heard my name in that familiar tone
'I missed you....you promised hawaii....' my mind heard Maya. I frantically tried to find her voice. The darkness was left behind as i clamoured to reach her. Maya where are you, i felt her hand in mine and tried to hold onto her.
When i had awoken to find her hand in mine my heart sank, i had dragged her back into my mess once again. I couldn't move my leg stung and my body ached. My left eye opened only half way and my ribs felt like they'd been put through a tumble dryer. The pain felt good because i felt it unlike the numbness of my life but when she looked at me with those eyes that saw into my soul i remembered what i kept putting everyone around me through. I needed to stop, i had to get over the past.

Lizetta walked in and ran straight to give me a hug, it hurt but i smiled. My sister had always been there for me no matter the crap i put her through. I was so thankful but i held the tears that threatened to escape, i had to be ok for her. I decided things would be different now i would stop this and make my life about taking care of her like it should have been. Behind her stood Mr. Pasha, he smiled but it never reached his eyes they were sad as if he felt he was to blame. He wasn't, he had been good to us both and i had let him down again. When Mr.Pasha gave Lizetta the housekeeper job he had also offered me a job at the architectural firm. I hadn't showed up and had infact used the advance paycheck to get high. The memories disgusted me and i shook my head trying to rid them from my mind. I would make them all proud, i would be the man they wanted me to be now i vowed to myself.