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J.M.| I Still Love You (extended)

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A year ago

"I can't believe you right now! Why can't you support my dream? You're so fucking selfish!" He shouted at me as we walked in the cold bring to the apartment that we shared.

"I'm selfish?! You're the one running off without me in TWO days! What happened to the plans we made at 2 am? What happened to our future together?" I screamed back at him as we approached the doorstep.

Jonah shook his head, "I can't do this right now, y/n." I watched through my tears as he walked inside the complex. I let it all out, not holding back any tears. Five years. Five years that we have been together, and we had never fought that hard. I perched myself on the ledge connected the building.

Five years that I loved and supported him. I look up at the moon, hoping it would give me answers. How do we get past this? Would we be able to do long distance while he's on tour? Will he find another girl and fall head over heels just as I did for him?

Maybe I was being selfish. I couldn't ask him to give up his dream of being a singer. Ever since I've known him he's been itching to perform on stages across the world. He's adventurous. That's just not the lifestyle I pictured, but I love him. My eyes wandered down to the beautiful diamond ring on my finger. We were supposed to get married.

Imagine being without him-I couldn't bear it. Realization washed over me. I would do anything for him, and I know he would do the same for me. My feet rushed up the stairs and into the apartment complex, all the way up to our door where a cozy welcome mat rested beneath my soaking wet boots. I knocked on the door, having left my key inside.

Jonah opened the door and looked at me for a moment. He had been crying too. We both peered into each other's eyes, apologizing without even using words.

"I love you," Jonah said cupping my cheeks and moving my rain-drenched hair out of my face.

"I love you," I replied, desperately gripping his shirt. His lips immediately tangled with mine in a loving and heated kiss.

We ventured further into the apartment we shared and closed the door, not breaking the kiss. His hands smoothly trailed from my cheeks down my neck, and under my jacket, sweeping it off my shoulders, dropping it to the floor. We work together to undress each other as we walked to our bedroom.

Jonah-now just in his boxers-lifted me up and carried me to our king sized bed. He laid me down, slowly crawling on top of me and kissing my neck while simultaneously unhooking my bra. His soft lips danced along my skin, giving me goosebumps. He stopped at the waistband of my thong, and slipped it down my legs, taking his sweet time with me.

Not many words were being said, we communicated through our actions. Jonah slipped into me slowly, and ran his fingers down my arm before intertwining them with mine as he started sliding in and out of me. The emotions being shared in that moment overpowered the argument we had, making it feel like our problems just fizzled away.

Jonah moved our intertwined hands above my head as he moved a little bit faster, but still slow.

I never imagined that I would feel a love that deep for anybody. But I was so in love.

"Jonah," I whispered.

"Yeah baby?" He answered not halting his actions.

"I love you so much," I bit my lip, genuinely happy.

"I love you so much more princess," He whispered, kissing my lips, my jaw and my neck.

His hand that wasn't connected to mine slid down my leg and wrapped it around his waist so he could curl his hips into mine.

"You're perfect," he breathed out.

Now

That was a perfect night, and I sit here alone in the same apartment weakly smiling at the memory. Jonah doesn't reside here any longer-he's living the dream he once chased.

As for me... I sit in the bed we once shared hoping that fate will bring us together again, but knowing it's an attainable dream.

A Few Months Later

Jonah's pov

I accomplished what I set out to do. Some might say I'm living my dream. It's all there-record deal, tours, EPs, an album, four new brothers. However there's still one part that's missing.

The girl.

Not just any girl...y/n.

Maybe I'm crazy for being hung up on a girl that probably wants no part of me after I selfishly left her to go to LA on the eve of our wedding. We fought against everyone who told us we were too young, too dumb, just for me to throw it all away.

I threw us away.

But I'm coming home to Minnesota, and I'm prepared to rewrite my wrongs because I thought I was chasing my dream, but I realize now that it wasn't my dream all along.

I have a new dream now, and I'm chasing her.

A ten hour flight and eight packets of airplane peanuts later, I'm back in my hometown.

A fifteen minute cab ride, and I'm back at the apartment we rented together.

With every step I take towards the door, electricity shoots up my veins. My hand knocks on the door nervously.

I'm confused when y/n's best friend opens the door instead of her.

"Y/bff/n, where's y/n?" I ask as she gives me a sort of glare.

Looking past her, I see a bunch of boxes taped up and ready to go.

"She left," she sighs.

"Where is she? I need to talk to her, it's important," I speak.

Her best friend looks like she's having a fight with her conscience for quite a while before she answers, "she's going to the airport. She's going to NYU. Her flight leaves in half an hour."

Who knew, I was just there. Maybe if I stayed there I would've ran into her.

"Come on, I'll drive you," she says, grabbing her keys.

It's a short, silent ride to the airport.

As soon as I'm inside, I dash to her gate like a mad man. My eyes frantically search for her, and land on a girl that looks just like her, but with different hair.

"Y/n!" I shout.

The girl's head snaps around, proving that it is indeed, the love of my life.

"Jonah?"

She walks towards me quickly, leaving her baggage behind for anyone to just scoop up.

She's still the most beautiful woman I've ever laid eyes on.

Tears fabricate from her sparkling eyes, as she cups my cheeks, stands up on her tippy toes and presses her lips to mine.

Just like that, I can breathe again. She turned my grey world to color again.

"What are you doing here?" she examines me as if I'm just a figment of her imagination.

"I came here to tell you that I still love you," I tell her, tears brimming my eyes.

"I still love you too," she cries, bringing our lips together again.

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You guys know I couldn't just end it like that, come on. Hope you're happy with it.

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